Kiss me Goodbye
Title:Kiss me Goodbye
Pairing:OnKey <3
Rating:PG-15
Summary:Kibum finds himself crushed after a party at Taemin's house
Genre:I wana say... semi crack/angist but i don't really know
Tidbit: I put a lot of work into this and i hope you like it. If you get confused just leave me a comment because i rewrote this so many times it might be off every now and again
I get out of Jong’s car, and I can’t believe we’re here. I should have noticed earlier but I guess I wasn’t really thinking. “Hey, are you ok?” Jong asks me. I quickly reply “yeah of course” but I’m not really sure myself.
We walk up to the door and it all starts to come back to me. Taemin is already waiting in the door way to greet us. “Long time no see. I’ve missed you guys” he said giving both of us mini hugs. “Yeah, it has been a while” Jong starts “but if you don’t mind, I’m going to head in and start chatting with the ladies”. And with a quick pat on the back, for both me and Taemin, he heads off into the party. “You know” Taemin says in a quiet voice “Jong told me about what happened the last time you came to one of my house parties. I just want to know if you’re ok being here. If not, I can always get Minho to drive you home”.
I smiled and assured him I’d be ok. Although I was kind of pissed that Jong had told Taemin about the last time, I was still kind of glad that Taemin was looking out for me.
As I walk past Taemin, and into the house, I start to think back. I remember you and everything that happened that night. Just as I pass Jong in the living room, trying to pick up girls, and Minho in the kitchen, telling jokes to a group of people, I see your face.
I wasn’t scared when I saw you-I think- it’s just that my body turned around and ran to Taemin’s room. I run into his room and sit on his floor, leaning my back against the wall. For some silly reason I thought you wouldn’t be here, but why wouldn’t you. I mean it is your best friend’s house.
~
I remember the night we first met. Jong had asked me to go with him to a party at his friend Taemin’s house. I quickly said yes, because I had had a crush on Jong for the longest time but he only saw us as friends.
It was 9pm when we got in Jong’s car. Taemin only lived 20mins away from him, but Jong insisted that Taemin would kill him if he didn’t bring anything. So we had to stop and pick up drinks. As we pulled up to Taemin’s house, Jong gave me a long speech on how I shouldn’t drink too much. Not because he liked me or anything, he just didn’t want to be the one to drag me back to the car. I rolled my eyes and got out of the car.
We walked up to the door only to see Taemin impatiently glaring at us, his arms crossed over his chest. “Where have you been” he was silently yelling at us, well specifically Jong,” I told you to be here at 9:30, it’s now 10”
“Sorry” Jong said apologetically “we had to stop for drinks” lifting the case to show him. Taemin walked up and snatched the drinks from Jong’s hands and examined them intently. “I don’t even like this kind, but it’ll have to do”
“Hi, I’m Key” I felt like this was the best time to get in an introduction. Taemin’s glare quickly became a smile as he turned to greet me. “It’s very nice to meet you. If Jong didn’t already tell you-“he shot a quick glare to Jong “- my name is Taemin. I hope you and I get to know each other better” I immediately made a confused face and Taemin quickly explained himself. “No, no no no no no no, don’t worry” he was frantically waving his hands in front of his face. “I didn’t mean it like that. I already have someone special. I’m not trying to hit on you I swear” he let out a huge laugh.
Noticing how embarrassed I was, Jong grabbed my hand and rushed past Taemin into the house. “Try to enjoy your own party, ok Taemin!” Jong yelled back. But as he was pulling me behind him, it really just got caught in my ear.
As we got inside the living room, I snatched my hand out of Jong’s. “I’m gonna go and look around” I told him, not really making eye contact for fear that my face would become an even brighter red. “Ok, I’ll be here chatting it up with the ladies” he assured me as he looked as some girl’s ass.
That was the thing about Jong. One moment he could be stealing my heart. The next he could be stomping on it till there was little feeling left. But it would be very likely that two seconds later, the little feeling that was left, he’d be stealing again.
I made my way into the kitchen to grab a drink. I wasn’t going to let the little things that Jong said ruin my night. As I arrived in the kitchen, I noticed someone sticking half way out of the fridge. “Excuse me” I said as I poked the guy’s back “do you know where the drinks are?”
He removed himself from the fridge as he turned to answer me “Uh yeah. I’m pretty sure they’re in the back yard”
“Thanks” I say trying to hold back my excited smile. This guy was absolutely adorable. He was tall, had nice black hair and the cutest/biggest eyes I had even seen. “Do you think you should be digging through other people’s refrigerators?” I questioned as my attempt to flirt with him.
“Yeah” he let out a slight laugh “but this is my boyfriend’s house so I should get some special privileges”
Mentally my jaw dropped. “Oh! So you’re Taemin’s special someone.”
“I wish he would stop referring to me as that. Did you know he even introduces me to people as his ‘special someone’? I mean, I have a name you know. How hard could it be for him to say, ‘I’d like you to meet Minho’ “. He breathed in heavily, slightly winded from his little rant.
I chuckled “Well Minho, I’m Key, and I think it’s great that you have someone who thinks you’re so special”
“Yeah, I guess so” he said scratching his head.
Seeing that I had no chance with him I began to end our conversation. “Well, I’m gonna go grab that drink. Maybe you should go check on Taemin and make sure he’s ok”
“I think I will” he responded “Enjoy the party!” And with that we went our separate ways.
I walked into the backyard only to see more people I didn’t know. Because of the luck I had had with Jong and Minho, I didn’t really want to get to know anyone else. I set my sights on one of the coolers and went to grab my drink as quickly as possible. The night wasn’t going as I expected, so I decided I would get a drink and just go sit in Jong’s car until he was ready to go.
Just as I reached out to get my drink, someone else’s hand reached for it too. I looked up, and it was you.
“You can have it” I said removing my hand from the bottle, “nothing’s going to make the night better anyway”.
“You’re not enjoying the night either, hmm” you said with a bit of smile. I couldn’t hold back the smile that was creeping up on my mouth. “Yeah, my friend asked me if I would join him here. I didn’t even know whose house this was until about 20mins ago”
“Ah” you sighed with a chuckle “at least you have a good excuse. I mean, this is my best friend’s house and I’m still not enjoying myself”.
We both laughed, happy that there was now someone to converse with.
“Hey, I’m Key” I stuck out my hand, semi annoyed with hearing my own introduction for the umpteenth time tonight.
“Jinki” you said fading out of your laughter. “Ok. How about I get some cups and we can share”
“Sounds good” I nodded. As you ran to get the cups, I grabbed a couple of chairs next to the tree. Maybe my luck was turning and tonight wouldn’t be too bad after all. While walking over to me, you ended up tripping over one of the tree’s aerial roots. And of course, the open beer bottle released its contents onto my pants. My pants were ruined but that didn’t stop me from dying of laughter. The way you fell was like something out of a cartoon and I had never seen something so unrealistic in my life.
“You’re not even drunk and you’re already falling for me” I couldn’t help but tease.
“Well that’s not hard” you lifted yourself off the ground “you’re pretty cute”
My cheeks turned bright pink and you let out a little laugh. “Here” you extended your hand to me “let’s go get you cleaned up”.
Without even giving you a response, you pulled me out of the chair and through the house. Past Minho in the kitchen, Jong in the living room and up the stairs into an empty bedroom. You let go of my hand and said “This is Taemin’s room”
“Woah!” I said loudly “I’m not that easy”
You started dying of laughter. “No” you explained while still dying “Taemin has his own bathroom. You can go clean up in there”. Without trying to apologize I quickly darted into the bathroom. “You don’t have to laugh so hard” I yelled as I closed the slammed the door shut.
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I stood in Taemin’s bathroom for about 15mins using a washcloth to try and scrub the beer out of my pants. It worked but my pants just ended up soaked, so I hung them up over Taemin’s shower to dry and left the bathroom. Of course when I came out, you laughed upon seeing me.
“You may not be that easy, but you sure do get out of your pants quickly”
“Ha ha, very funny. But I had to scrub out the beer you spilled on me. But none the less, I think I’m just going to stay up here and wait for them to dry. Thanks for showing me the room, but I think I can handle this on my own”.
You walked over to Taemin’s bed and plopped right onto your back. “Nah, I think I’ll stay up here with you. I don’t really have any reason to go back down anyway”. You patted a spot on the bed next to you signaling for me to join. “Remember, I’m not easy” I said as I plopped down next to you. “Or so I’m told” you snickered.
It felt silly laying there on someone’s bed, just staring at the ceiling with no pants on. Bu t at the same time it made total sense. At that moment nothing mattered: not the party, not my pants, not even Jong.
“You know” you broke the silence “I feel like I could live forever in this moment. Where time has stopped and there’s no moving forward or going back”
“But at the same time” I finished your thought “you know, that staying in this moment will never bring you the thing you want most”. We turned our heads and locked eyes with one another; and that was all it took.
I rolled on top of you and crashed our lips together. It was messy and passionate. I lifted off your shirt and began sloppily sucking on your neck as you ran your fingers through my hair. Soon enough you rolled us over and I was now underneath you. You hastily pulled my shirt off but then we just stopped. I looked at you and you at me but we didn’t move. “We can stay in this moment” I said stroking the side of your face. You had made me unsure of what I wanted and I needed for time to stand still.
“No” you said pulling your face away from my hand “we need to move forward”
I started to unzip your pants when you got up “I can’t do this Key, it just doesn’t- I’m- I just can’t”. You picked up your shirt and left the room. I understood you completely, and it made perfect sense. But that didn’t mean it hurt less. As soon as the door closed behind you the tears fell quickly from my eyes. I was broken and I didn’t know how to fix myself.
~
“Hey, what are you doing in here?” you ask as you opened Taemin’s door “Returning to the scene of the crime I see”
“Don’t ask questions you know the answer to” I reply sharply. You chuckle and take a seat next to me, “I guess I deserve the harsh words for what I did. But you know I wasn’t the only one between the two of us who felt that way”
“But you don’t just get up and leave” I yell loud enough for only the two of us to hear. You don’t respond because you know I’m right, you’re tongue tied to say the least.
My phone rings and I answer it but I never take my eyes off of you. It’s Jong “Hey key, meet me at the car. These chicks want me to take them out right now and you know how I can’t say no to the ladies” and without giving me a chance to respond he hangs up. “I have to go” I say with a deep sigh as I get up off of the floor.
You grab my hand “Don’t leave”
“No!” I pull my hand away and give you the angriest look know to man “up until that moment I knew everything, but the second you left I became unsure”
You get up and pin me against the wall, tears begin to well up in my eyes “don’t you dare” I whisper roughly.
“Don’t leave me” you beg
“I wanted you then”
“I want you now”
You hook your lips onto mine and I can’t take it; the tears fall. After a few seconds you pull back and I push you away from. “I don’t want to stay in this moment” I say as I open the door with my back towards you “So I’ll keep moving to find what I really want”. Without looking back I leave you there and head for Jong’s car.
Extra Tidbit:So this has a word count of 2,424 words. Making it my longest fic yet, YAY! But i swear i'll probably never do one this long again, honestly i get bored writing it, and because I'm not a great writer, you probably get bored reading it so yeah. Also this is the first fic in my Tales of Regretseries so they're be two more i write this summer that'll be as upsetting or even more so then this so keep you eyes out for those. :3 <3
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