the sun will never shine the same
i guess i took today off for a reason.
i thought i would be a basketcase at work.
and i knew it...even yesterday i was thinking about how awful today would be...but now today's almost over and i didn't even think about it once.
until i saw the date.
10 years.
i can't believe she's been gone that long.
i can't believe i've survived a whole decade without her.
i don't know how i did it.
i really do miss her so much.
i always think there's so many things in my life i want her to see.
so many things she's missed...will miss.
lately i've been thinking about kids...i don't think i want them, but then i kinda do.
one will have her name. maybe her maiden name as a middle name. Gray. kinda a cute middle name.
it's always weird to celebrate my dad's birthday one day...and the next day remember that i lost my mom. i hate that those days are right next to each other.
i need a hug.
maybe someone to kiss the tears away too.
and sometimes i think he's the only one that ever understood what losing her felt like.
not that i miss him...well not all the time...every once and a while i kinda do though.