panic on the streets of london...
i feel awful.
i shouldn't have done it.
but i shouldn't feel bad about it either.
i'm so confused.
i have no idea what i need to do to make me happy.
the answer probably isn't him. or him. or that other guy.
so why do i keep each of them in my life?
why don't i let go?
maybe so i won't be alone.
maybe so i have someone to talk to.
maybe because of the history we've shared and the fact that i don't want it to end.
maybe because he's a good friend.
maybe because something about him makes me curious.
well i know this is quite confusing.
but it actually helps to type it out even if it doesn't make sense to just anyone who reads it.
in other news, nothing is really new.
i applied at mac at nordstrom and still haven't heard back. it's been almost 2 weeks.
so maybe tomorrow when i'm at work i'll stop by and see if there's anything i can find out.
might get a job at sephora at downtown disney too.
we'll see i guess.
i have so much free time i don't even know what to do with it.
everyone i know has class and homework and work.
all i have is work. that's why i need more work to make up for the extra time.
anyways, that's it.
what's everyone doing for halloween? where are you going? what are you going to be?
i want to do something fun but i haven't really heard of much yet.
and i still don't know what to be.
<3
i shouldn't have done it.
but i shouldn't feel bad about it either.
i'm so confused.
i have no idea what i need to do to make me happy.
the answer probably isn't him. or him. or that other guy.
so why do i keep each of them in my life?
why don't i let go?
maybe so i won't be alone.
maybe so i have someone to talk to.
maybe because of the history we've shared and the fact that i don't want it to end.
maybe because he's a good friend.
maybe because something about him makes me curious.
well i know this is quite confusing.
but it actually helps to type it out even if it doesn't make sense to just anyone who reads it.
in other news, nothing is really new.
i applied at mac at nordstrom and still haven't heard back. it's been almost 2 weeks.
so maybe tomorrow when i'm at work i'll stop by and see if there's anything i can find out.
might get a job at sephora at downtown disney too.
we'll see i guess.
i have so much free time i don't even know what to do with it.
everyone i know has class and homework and work.
all i have is work. that's why i need more work to make up for the extra time.
anyways, that's it.
what's everyone doing for halloween? where are you going? what are you going to be?
i want to do something fun but i haven't really heard of much yet.
and i still don't know what to be.
<3