this isnt fun aymore
I have so much stress right now...
The apartment I was supposed to get got rented out and that makes me furious. The lady said another one is opening up and she would process my paper work and give me a call back. That was tuesday. It takes mere hours to do a background check. And there is NO reason I shouldnt get it.
My parents, who told me I could use my grandmas house as storage so I could start to clean this fucking apartment here, now have revoked that for some odd reason. I have NO WHERE to store my things, and NO money for a storage unit (which is usually $100 a month) I dont even need it for a month probably.
I have ONE week to move out my things and clean this whole apartment, and I have a feeling Im not going to get help...
I paid my phone bill which was $55, and now I am going to pay the rent here, and then I have $60 in the bank. Comcast is due and its $93.
Im not getting paid for babysitting this week until Val gets money, and I dont know when that is going to be.
This whole situation is going down like a sinking ship fast...
Ive been all calm and "things are going to be fine" until right about now...
And Matt...
gah.
Things are fine, back and forth with me being insecure and not trusting (do you blame me?) but wanting it work out. But part of me doesnt want the added stress. Part of me knows it isnt gonna last..I dunno. I want to be positive. I know people can change, the point is does he want to change?
I so wanted to take a vacation this year (DISNEYLAND!! might be last year of the Haunted Mansion Holiday) but that doesnt seem to be able to happen.
God then theres my car. Didnt even think about that.
I have a dentist appt next wednesday and Im going to the dmv. Im sick of having to deal with shit. Im sick of having to borrow money from my dad. I feel HORRIABLE. Fuck it. Im coming to the point where I am going to have to sell all my dvds and vhs and cds just to have some fucking money.
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The apartment I was supposed to get got rented out and that makes me furious. The lady said another one is opening up and she would process my paper work and give me a call back. That was tuesday. It takes mere hours to do a background check. And there is NO reason I shouldnt get it.
My parents, who told me I could use my grandmas house as storage so I could start to clean this fucking apartment here, now have revoked that for some odd reason. I have NO WHERE to store my things, and NO money for a storage unit (which is usually $100 a month) I dont even need it for a month probably.
I have ONE week to move out my things and clean this whole apartment, and I have a feeling Im not going to get help...
I paid my phone bill which was $55, and now I am going to pay the rent here, and then I have $60 in the bank. Comcast is due and its $93.
Im not getting paid for babysitting this week until Val gets money, and I dont know when that is going to be.
This whole situation is going down like a sinking ship fast...
Ive been all calm and "things are going to be fine" until right about now...
And Matt...
gah.
Things are fine, back and forth with me being insecure and not trusting (do you blame me?) but wanting it work out. But part of me doesnt want the added stress. Part of me knows it isnt gonna last..I dunno. I want to be positive. I know people can change, the point is does he want to change?
I so wanted to take a vacation this year (DISNEYLAND!! might be last year of the Haunted Mansion Holiday) but that doesnt seem to be able to happen.
God then theres my car. Didnt even think about that.
I have a dentist appt next wednesday and Im going to the dmv. Im sick of having to deal with shit. Im sick of having to borrow money from my dad. I feel HORRIABLE. Fuck it. Im coming to the point where I am going to have to sell all my dvds and vhs and cds just to have some fucking money.
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