Quiet, yet busy

[lullabye123]

It has been a rough past couple of weeks, interspersed with moments of peace and quiet joy.

Rough:

• 3 more doctor visits, 2 MRIs and 1 more doctor visit to go this month.
• right arm is still tingly/numb, but neurologist appointment not until mid-November
• face is still burning, but it may be related to the cyst in my sinuses-ENT appt next week
• bills piling up and I had to stop putting $$ into my 401K and savings + pull all the savings out. It scares me.
• it suddenly hurts my upper back left side  to take a deep breath, although it is easing up some today
• Mild case of bronchitis
• Upped BP meds... out of samples so filled the script-it is NOT on the $4 list...
• it was 106.72 for one month  so I will not be able to take this one. It's a shame, as it is working. BP is lower.
• Ruby has started messing in house again.
• Desperately need some car maintenance but don't have any $$
• Last essay (Spay & Neuter---Cause and Effect in Community) was horrible. Hasn't been graded yet... just wasn't insprired, although I think it is important
• Mid-Terms
• Mower and weedeater not working
• Bathroom drain is slow... have used drain-o, but no affect ---plumbers are damned expensive
• Koi pond ready to be winterized and I am just not strong enough
• Insomnia has reared its ugly head and I am exhausted
• Nicki is being really lazy and not helping with stuff around the house unless I force the issue.
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• CREDIT program project is stressing my group... no idea where we are going with it.
• Was assigned to the phone team. I HATE being in phones. No break.  Have to be nice all day.
• Toastmasters has taken over all my lunch breaks, as I don't have time to deal with it during the day
• Banquet is finally over! Whoo.
• Missed last meeting and my back-up didn't go, so no attendance records taken. More emails.......
• Yesterday, had to hang up on an agent because of his yelling and cursing. Always rough....
• Was not selected for other department applied to. Good interview, but they want a degree.-why, I don't know, as the work is black/white--a checklist. what I do is far harder and much more technical knowledge is required, as well decision making. Oh well.... their loss.
• Someone I really dislike was assigned to my team
• Tried to finish following up on Autumn swap. One of my swap partners never sent... huge disappointment, as only one participant fulfilled all the requirements of the LMAO. Finally gave up and closed the LMAO.
• Early onset of SAD... or maybe just the exhaustion is leading to a depression. I have gone 2 years with no anti-depressants and trying to make it a third, but it is a struggle.

Quiet Joy:

• It's Autumn and the weather has been amazing
• Was able to sit outside and bask in the moonlight on Monday
• Nathan's picture on the front page of the band site-there is such happiness in his face
• Marge brought me a 5 lb bag of DD coffee beans! (okay, that's LOUD joy)
• Was very happy with what I sent to my partner for Honoring Your Ancestors swap, was fun to put together and I wish I had taken pictures. I was really pleased with the wrapping too
• Almost finished decluttering clothes and stuff I have hauled around for past 3 moves
• Garage organized
• Marge's daughter sent me a sequined Halloween picture-children's artwork is the best!
• Nicki bought two pumpkins for the front porch. I wasn't going to spend the money and was a little sad about it.
• Read "The Age of Innocence" again
• A neighbor who picked pears in the side yard brought me pear preserves as a thank you. Yum......
• Had a real date with someone very nice. Nothing there, but we had a pleasant  time and plan to go out again... maybe a long bike ride this weekend.  Great conversationalist, he is. And open minded and tolerant, which is important. 
• New penpal! Denmark
• Completely finished two journals.
• Started a new journal
• possibility of meeting a very cool couple I have been chatting with for awhile on 25th, which would be awesome.
• looking forward to John's arrival at end of month and my vacation

There is a lot more, but my mind is blank. Nothing horrible going on, but no overwhelming good stuff either.
Time to get ready for work.