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i've been dealing with so much stress lately. i feel like i am falling apart. sometimes i am just blank inside and i don't want to be touched. it is very similar to a feeling of clautrophobia. other times, i feel so hopeless and just expect this routine of life to continue without any further development. i have so much responibility and i'm going to crack. i have to take care of everyone now all by myself. there have been many nights recently that i have just wanted to keep myself in the bathtub for hours crying and soaking up lavander scented suds and milky perfumed water. there is so much to be concerned about now and i am having the mot difficult time coping with everything in this fragile and sensitive state.
not lovely.
not lovely.