irritated
You know whats funny when you want someone to be your friend and then they do the opposite. Moving on is the best thing in the world, I am glad that I can move on and not have to worry about other peoples feelings. Maybe life is meant to be alone not knowing where life will take you. There are other people for me to get to know out here in this world. It's funny to think that I was so caught up in my feelings and denied the fact that I needed to move on. I am now to the point where I don't have any feelings for her, I am starting to understand why things are going the way they are. The understanding that change is a good thing. The fact that I can know what I gained and lost from this past relationship will only make me stronger in the future. If only I had let go sooner then I would not have hurt myself so much. I am irritated cause I know that what has happened is rather amusing and I know what I seek in a relationship now. I want to settle down and be with someone who can care for my feelings and not send me mixed signals all the time. Knowing that I can come home and be happy with out having to wonder where she has run off too. Knowing that she is home safe and not out calling me at 2am cause she says she is bored. Caring for someone is one thing, but hiding your feelings and denying them is another. I care but cant let my feelings get the best of me. For now I need to be alone not speaking and not talking to any girls. I am alone and hate it but I know that this is what needs to happen in my life. I am moving now and wont turn back not for a min. If a girl wants to be in my life and cares enough to understand that they need me then they will come back and talk to me. I am done trying to explain myself to who so ever feels like it. You want to talk to me then talk to me other wise I am moving and not looking back. I am done.