tired
Well I am tired, upset, shaken, and left with alot to think about. I care for my ex still even though she thinks I betrayed her. Uh the truth finally comes out that she as fallen in love with me, and will forevr hate me too. I am kind of confused and refuse to work things out with her, I cant let myself get hurt again, not by her. Dammit I need to get my life in order and get over this god damn hump. I want a decent relationship that will appreciate me for who I am. Too much hurting has gone on, and it has to stop. I feel betrayed in part for lack of communication. It's gone on too long and it needs to stop. I cant believe I stressed my self out so much. Maybe things are better this way. Why is it that a girl treats you like she does not care and then falls in love with you? Cause the nice guys finish last, its how it will always be for me cause I never have the best. Cause I am always second best.........