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Other than missing my much-needed head shrinking appointment because I had confused dates and times, and getting into a minor fender-bender my trip up here was smooth sailing.
My ride is totally crazy and crushable and we had lots to talk about. We met her dad in Boston, and once he took over driving and she started playing some dope jams like RJD2 or Prefuse 73, my brain started wandering.
I felt ok and calm about my love issues. Sometimes I feel like there isn't enough seratonin in my brain chemistry, that it's getting clogged up somewhere in my head crystallizing and not flowing through my blood stream until BAM, a concentrated crystal chunk of it breaks off and falls in and supercharges my blood with this crazy ecstatic feeling, like the top of my head is just getting beamed with good vibes and "everything will be ok" knowledge. So hard to explain without sounding cheesy, but I get this feeling maybe a few times a month, its almost always music- or transport-related.
Anyway, back at home, its ok. I'm holding firm about identity shit even tho I haven't detected any gender presentation critique yet. Off to read some Valencia.
My ride is totally crazy and crushable and we had lots to talk about. We met her dad in Boston, and once he took over driving and she started playing some dope jams like RJD2 or Prefuse 73, my brain started wandering.
I felt ok and calm about my love issues. Sometimes I feel like there isn't enough seratonin in my brain chemistry, that it's getting clogged up somewhere in my head crystallizing and not flowing through my blood stream until BAM, a concentrated crystal chunk of it breaks off and falls in and supercharges my blood with this crazy ecstatic feeling, like the top of my head is just getting beamed with good vibes and "everything will be ok" knowledge. So hard to explain without sounding cheesy, but I get this feeling maybe a few times a month, its almost always music- or transport-related.
Anyway, back at home, its ok. I'm holding firm about identity shit even tho I haven't detected any gender presentation critique yet. Off to read some Valencia.