luka is bi-winning
So I've been pretty much on a rampage of chaos since late march, and now it turns out I have bipolar type II.
Not the cool kind either, the one where you get a metric fuckton of work done and feel productive and crash later. Nope, this is the "FUCK NO TIME TO SLEEP NO TIME TO EAT GOTTA GET ONLINE AND DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR 20 HOURS STRAIGHT SO BUSY SOOOO BUSY" variety of the illness.
So that is why I have been flailing lately, and why I have, yet again, lost all my government support. See the paperwork came 3 months ago but i put it off the first month because i had plenty of time, and then hit the chemistry zone and just didn't care. Like, I knew the consequences were going to hit me but I thought it was sort of funny and went back to doing a lot of frantic nothing for another two months.
When i finally did the paperwork it looked like a child had filled it out. I just... wow. I can't believe that was me. I am all about kicking ass and taking names, and then suddenly I was almost gleefully self-sabotaging because pfffff responsibility. And I just had NO control over it.
At least I got some writing done. In a ay, breaking my decade of writer's block was worth it.
But anyway. There's my news for the season I guess.
Not the cool kind either, the one where you get a metric fuckton of work done and feel productive and crash later. Nope, this is the "FUCK NO TIME TO SLEEP NO TIME TO EAT GOTTA GET ONLINE AND DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR 20 HOURS STRAIGHT SO BUSY SOOOO BUSY" variety of the illness.
So that is why I have been flailing lately, and why I have, yet again, lost all my government support. See the paperwork came 3 months ago but i put it off the first month because i had plenty of time, and then hit the chemistry zone and just didn't care. Like, I knew the consequences were going to hit me but I thought it was sort of funny and went back to doing a lot of frantic nothing for another two months.
When i finally did the paperwork it looked like a child had filled it out. I just... wow. I can't believe that was me. I am all about kicking ass and taking names, and then suddenly I was almost gleefully self-sabotaging because pfffff responsibility. And I just had NO control over it.
At least I got some writing done. In a ay, breaking my decade of writer's block was worth it.
But anyway. There's my news for the season I guess.