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I seem to be having trouble mustering up the motivation to do anything. Pay bills, go to class, go to work, and all that. I seem to be in a slump. I wish i could say that i have reason. I could blame it on the urges and feelings that i've been suppressing for the past couple of weeks. but that would be easy, to say that it is something else entirely and not just me being lazy. I have yet to even start on the layout for Miners' Ink.
I met a boi last week, but he is distant and removed. He and i really didn't have much in common and while i would love to get to know him better it's he who is not calling me. I don't want to chase them anymore. I tire of the games, i tire just of "Going through the motions, walking through the part..." I need to stop identifying with Buffy. like when i was watching Angel, i told Karl "Yeah know, Angel reminds me a lot of Matt." And it is at that point that i realized that i need to just drop it. Stop talking about him, thinking of him. I need to forget what it was like to be with him. And yet, there is no place in Socorro that doesn't remind me of him. There are no solutions i guess to the problem. Only time will wash away the memories and alleviate the pains of everyday life. I'm getting dark again. Hey maybe i will start writing again?
I met a boi last week, but he is distant and removed. He and i really didn't have much in common and while i would love to get to know him better it's he who is not calling me. I don't want to chase them anymore. I tire of the games, i tire just of "Going through the motions, walking through the part..." I need to stop identifying with Buffy. like when i was watching Angel, i told Karl "Yeah know, Angel reminds me a lot of Matt." And it is at that point that i realized that i need to just drop it. Stop talking about him, thinking of him. I need to forget what it was like to be with him. And yet, there is no place in Socorro that doesn't remind me of him. There are no solutions i guess to the problem. Only time will wash away the memories and alleviate the pains of everyday life. I'm getting dark again. Hey maybe i will start writing again?