WORDS!
fuyukoi did this meme called WORDS! that seemed fun so I signed up for it! And here are the words I got from her! :D
Word 1: Chef
My Job! Or, actually, I'm a garde manger which means my part of the kitchen is the cold one. I take care of the salads, the sandwiches, the finger food, the canapeés, desserts... you name it. ^^ For the past three years in particular, I've really really loved my job. I think I might come of as I'm complaining about my job a lot, when in reality I absolutely love it. I'm just veeeery very busy and work many many hours which completely drains me from all the energy I've got. It's not a bad thing though, I still love it - I'm just really tired most of the time from working long hours XD with no breaks or any opportunities of sitting down at all. Just so you know. :3 (12-14 hrs a day is not a rare thing for me! Though I did get slightly better - my standard working hours used to be between 80-85 hrs a week - so please bare with me if I seem to disappear sometimes! m(____)m )
Erm, sidetracked! XD ANYWHOO! I adore my job and the more intricate things I get to do, the more fun it is. I love coming up with new ideas and recepies and trying them out on my guests! And the most challenging thing for me these past few years has definitely been getting the hang of my position as a leader and a boss "my coffee shop" (I call it that even though I'm not actually the owner - but my responsibilities to my boss is to run it.) I have a few staff to keep track of and that's definitely the most challenging thing - I've always been one of those "Too nice" kind of persons, and I've had real troubles saying no. I've had to learn to get better at that, to say the least. It's very difficult for me to be a manager, but it's fun to try and learn what ways are the best to get people to do what you want them to, and a real test for my (very low) patience and tolerance level! XD
As I said, though. The place I really belong is in the kitchen so here, have some foodporn of things I've made. (Sorry if you've seen some of it before, i don't remember what I've posted, these were the ones I had easy access to on my HD! XD)
Word 2: Fishboy!Tsu
AHHHH!!! WHERE DO I BEGIN EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS FOR FISHBOY???? It all started as one specific fanfic, Forfeit written by my ever so wonderful friend over at kurikaesuharu! I LOVED IT AND HAD SO MANY FEELINGS I DIDN'T KNOWW HAT TO DO WITH IT AND READ IT 800 MILLION TIMES! Annnnd, fishboy was actually the start of our friendship - if I remember correctly I found her fic journal and FLAILED A LOT A LOT A LOT over alllllll her amazing fics and then forfeit slayed me dead comepletely - it was the first comment I ever left her - personal or fic, actually, and it was waaay back in 2008! (We've knows each other for a looong time now!♥) I then might have stalked her a lot and might have been a realy creepster ha ha haaa! XDDD
A couple of years went by and she started writing the accompanying piece, this time from Takki's pov. AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I might have bugged the hell out of her for it, actually. I think I nagged her about it more than I care to remember. It is glorious and perfect and cute and ahh these fics have allllll my fetishes lined up in a row (AWKWARD ERECTIONSSSSSS~~~! *___*) and I have read this too a GAZILLION TIMES AND I LOVE YOU FOR WRITING THIS!
THEN! As I am the most annoying friend ever I might've kept bugging her for EVEN MORE and now it is on it's way AND I COULD FLAIL AND SPAZZ FOREEEEEEVERRRRRRR AND AHHH, I WANT IT NOW NOW NOW AND AT THE SAME TIME I WANT HER TO WRITE FOREVER BECAUSE THE LONGER THE BETTER!
In short! I love fishboy more than I can ever put into words (I think my love for fisboy is getting quite famous as of now ha ha haa!) and since it was also the start of the epic friendship of Em&M (I think that's what we're called now? XDDD) it is even better! ♥♥♥
Word 3: Bunny
Oh, bunny! XD It is actually a quite funny story as to HOW I got him. I've told a couple of people, but most people never heard it so... I'll just go ahead and tell it here too. :3
I've been thinking of getting a pet for quite a while, but since my apartment is tiny it's been quite difficult to know what to get and how to go about it. I've always been a cat person, but right now I don't think I could have one - I'd go crazy if it started clawing at my takitsuba collection for example. So I've been sort of "Nah, it just isn't for me right now."
Then one day I was in a pet store with my sister looking around, I wanted to just look around and she was buying cat food for her cats and, yeah. We started checking out the cages and the bunnies were just so adorable - this black and white one with floppy ears in particular. I told the store clerk that he was adorable and she.... I don't know if she was the smartest sales person ever, or if she was just a little bit odd, but she told me, "Isn't he! Buy him, buy him!" I loled and were like, "Er, maybe not. I haven't planned for something like that at all." And then she started talking about bunnies and their age for a minute or so, before she says, "Well, this bunny (the one I'd looked at) is already 9 weeks old. He's still a baby but size-wize, he's pretty much fully grown. He's bigger than the other ones so now most people don't want him - they want the smaller ones even though it's just a difference of two weeks. And if we can't sell him soon we have to send him back to the breeder and he'll turn into snake food!"
Annd there goes me, without a second of hesitation, "I'LL TAKE HIM!!!(╯°Д°）╯"
And that's the story of how "luinlote met Usagi!" or, rather, the story of how Emma suddenly went home carrying a box with a super scared bunny and suddenly had to take responsibility for anyone other than herself for the first time in her life. I am still a bit "!!!" about it sometimes, but we're doing fine and have become good friends. I just want him to stop chewing my wallpapers. XDDDD He is curious and very social so if you ever come here he is likely to come smell your feet and try to make you feed him. His favorites are apple slizes and crisp bread. :3333
Word 4: All the info/files ever *_*
I'm a maaaad hoarder/collector when it comes to takitsuba. I think I have somehow managed to get most of anything, ever? Of course there are still certain things missing, but thanks to dear friends in Japan, friends who have been fans for a loooong long time, I think I have managed to get most of my takitsuba collection pretty much complete. I think one of my biggest feelings of joy was when me and curiosa_cabinet got two huge bags filled with 50 or 60 old videotapes with old takitsuba junior TV shows. We sat for sooo long watching through SO many of the old MUSIC JUMP and MUSIC ENTA episodes that night that I can't even remember. We sat giggling for hours and hours. XD
I am really proud of the takitsuba collection I've managed to get these past 8 years and I think that if there is something you want or need chances are big I might have it, be it a fancam or a random newsclip from 2006, or a strange junior show you heard about! : DDDD I don't even think I managed to watch through it all myself yet? If you want something, don't hesitate to ask - am more than happy to share, but I am also very busy and forgetful, so chances are I might forget to upload - don't feel bad for poking me again and again, it's the only way to help me remember! ♥♥♥
My fandom wish is to have the time to share more stuff! AND ONE DAY, I WILL MANAGE, I SWEAR! : DDDD
Word 5: T&T
Ahh, where to even begin. I don't even know. I love them. I love them so so much it is impossible to describe. I don't think anyone who's not in a fandom knows what I talk about when I say it - people at work still don't even know the half of it.
But these two. I still remember the very first thing I saw with them, when I saw it. It was the KAMEN PV and I stumbled across it not exactly randomly. I remember how floored I got right away. The dancing, the costumes, how HANDSOME the lighter one was (Yes, believe it or not - I noticed Takki first!) and then when they stood fancing each other, taking of each others masks... the slash lover in me couldn't believe this was true there was such TENSION there. And I googled and I searched and I hunted the internet down for every single little thing I could find. This was summer 2005 and I spent ALL summer looking though things, buying every DVD I could find, searching for songs, PV's... and the more I saw the more I loved them.
And it's still like that today. I love them more and more every day. How hard they work. How mush they've grown. I love them as persons, as idols and as role models. I love watching them, I love drooling over them, I never feel as happy or as alive as when I see them in concerts. During rough periods of my life the help me cope (Up until late spring in 2010, I had the most horrible job that I hated - they helped me get through it) and when things are good, they make evrything even better.
I love them together. Their relationship makes me believe that true love exist, makes me believe there are soulmates out there, made for each other.
They're the most amazing persons, and I am so proud to be their fan, every single day. I want to tell them one day - I sadly didn't manage to do it on the handshake event in Sendai - that I am proud and grateful for being their fan, how important they are and how much they mean in my every day life. I just want to thank them for all the joy they have given me, and still give me. ♥
I remember so well one day when one of my coworkers asked me (she is very sweet, but also very conservative) when she thought this idol-infatuation would pass. I laughed, and explain that I love them, but I am not in love with them. I have no kind of disillusions that they will one day see me at a concert and fall in love with me, which most people outside of fandom seems to think. But I love them, even so.
She asked me what would happen if I met someone who wouldn't accept them, would say that I had to choose. And it's SO easy for me - of course I'd choose takitsuba. I did choose takitsuba, when it came to that. I told her that and she stared open mouthed at me, told me with so much sympathy in her voice that she hoped it'll pass. And I told her that I never, ever, ever want it to pass. Because I love them more than anything, and I'd never give them up, ever. Because they're always there to cheer me up, they've been a bigger part of my life than anything.
If anyone outside of (a) fandom reads this, I'm going to sound like a crazy person. XDDD
But still. The joy they give me, all the good times they've given me though these years. The wonderful friends I got though this fandom. All these surges of FEELINGS that makes me feel like I'm on the tp of the world, the time I spend hunting down Tsubasa's damn ippen essays (ONLY TWO MISSING NOW YOSHAAAA!), the insane concert and butai trips I've been on (I've seen them, unit and solo, 45 times now), the research project of scrutinizing every look they ever give each other, every thing they say about each other to proove their married-ness . I could never ever give that up.
I just really really love them. More than anything, I love them.
And now I've made myself weepy, thinking about how much they mean to me. ♥♥♥
Ahhhh, sorry Athu, I think I went a bit overboard with my ramblings! TOO MANY WORDS XDDDD But when I get going, it's difficult for me to stop ha ha haa!
If anyone else wants to do this meme, here goes:
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Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.
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And now it's time for me to sleep. I've been feeling a bit better today than I have lately... or, rather, I did in the afternoon. After I'd slept for 13 hours last night, and then a two hour nap during the day... so I hope to sleep for a long long time tonight as well, and maybe finally get back to almost-normal energy level after this weekend is done... right now I think I am feeling slightly better at least. ^^ My mom and sister was over for a while this evening and we watched Avatar and had vanilla milkshakes, so they gave me a lot of positive energy. ♥ And tomorrow, believe it or not, I am going to a game in the ice hockey world cup with D-san.We're watching the Canada-Czech Republic and it's going to be... interesting. D-san loooves ice-hockey so I'm taking her as a birthday present! It's my first ice-hockey game so I'm not sure what to expect ha ha ha! XDDD
Word 1: Chef
My Job! Or, actually, I'm a garde manger which means my part of the kitchen is the cold one. I take care of the salads, the sandwiches, the finger food, the canapeés, desserts... you name it. ^^ For the past three years in particular, I've really really loved my job. I think I might come of as I'm complaining about my job a lot, when in reality I absolutely love it. I'm just veeeery very busy and work many many hours which completely drains me from all the energy I've got. It's not a bad thing though, I still love it - I'm just really tired most of the time from working long hours XD with no breaks or any opportunities of sitting down at all. Just so you know. :3 (12-14 hrs a day is not a rare thing for me! Though I did get slightly better - my standard working hours used to be between 80-85 hrs a week - so please bare with me if I seem to disappear sometimes! m(____)m )
Erm, sidetracked! XD ANYWHOO! I adore my job and the more intricate things I get to do, the more fun it is. I love coming up with new ideas and recepies and trying them out on my guests! And the most challenging thing for me these past few years has definitely been getting the hang of my position as a leader and a boss "my coffee shop" (I call it that even though I'm not actually the owner - but my responsibilities to my boss is to run it.) I have a few staff to keep track of and that's definitely the most challenging thing - I've always been one of those "Too nice" kind of persons, and I've had real troubles saying no. I've had to learn to get better at that, to say the least. It's very difficult for me to be a manager, but it's fun to try and learn what ways are the best to get people to do what you want them to, and a real test for my (very low) patience and tolerance level! XD
As I said, though. The place I really belong is in the kitchen so here, have some foodporn of things I've made. (Sorry if you've seen some of it before, i don't remember what I've posted, these were the ones I had easy access to on my HD! XD)
Word 2: Fishboy!Tsu
AHHHH!!! WHERE DO I BEGIN EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS FOR FISHBOY???? It all started as one specific fanfic, Forfeit written by my ever so wonderful friend over at kurikaesuharu! I LOVED IT AND HAD SO MANY FEELINGS I DIDN'T KNOWW HAT TO DO WITH IT AND READ IT 800 MILLION TIMES! Annnnd, fishboy was actually the start of our friendship - if I remember correctly I found her fic journal and FLAILED A LOT A LOT A LOT over alllllll her amazing fics and then forfeit slayed me dead comepletely - it was the first comment I ever left her - personal or fic, actually, and it was waaay back in 2008! (We've knows each other for a looong time now!♥) I then might have stalked her a lot and might have been a realy creepster ha ha haaa! XDDD
A couple of years went by and she started writing the accompanying piece, this time from Takki's pov. AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I might have bugged the hell out of her for it, actually. I think I nagged her about it more than I care to remember. It is glorious and perfect and cute and ahh these fics have allllll my fetishes lined up in a row (AWKWARD ERECTIONSSSSSS~~~! *___*) and I have read this too a GAZILLION TIMES AND I LOVE YOU FOR WRITING THIS!
THEN! As I am the most annoying friend ever I might've kept bugging her for EVEN MORE and now it is on it's way AND I COULD FLAIL AND SPAZZ FOREEEEEEVERRRRRRR AND AHHH, I WANT IT NOW NOW NOW AND AT THE SAME TIME I WANT HER TO WRITE FOREVER BECAUSE THE LONGER THE BETTER!
In short! I love fishboy more than I can ever put into words (I think my love for fisboy is getting quite famous as of now ha ha haa!) and since it was also the start of the epic friendship of Em&M (I think that's what we're called now? XDDD) it is even better! ♥♥♥
Word 3: Bunny
Oh, bunny! XD It is actually a quite funny story as to HOW I got him. I've told a couple of people, but most people never heard it so... I'll just go ahead and tell it here too. :3
I've been thinking of getting a pet for quite a while, but since my apartment is tiny it's been quite difficult to know what to get and how to go about it. I've always been a cat person, but right now I don't think I could have one - I'd go crazy if it started clawing at my takitsuba collection for example. So I've been sort of "Nah, it just isn't for me right now."
Then one day I was in a pet store with my sister looking around, I wanted to just look around and she was buying cat food for her cats and, yeah. We started checking out the cages and the bunnies were just so adorable - this black and white one with floppy ears in particular. I told the store clerk that he was adorable and she.... I don't know if she was the smartest sales person ever, or if she was just a little bit odd, but she told me, "Isn't he! Buy him, buy him!" I loled and were like, "Er, maybe not. I haven't planned for something like that at all." And then she started talking about bunnies and their age for a minute or so, before she says, "Well, this bunny (the one I'd looked at) is already 9 weeks old. He's still a baby but size-wize, he's pretty much fully grown. He's bigger than the other ones so now most people don't want him - they want the smaller ones even though it's just a difference of two weeks. And if we can't sell him soon we have to send him back to the breeder and he'll turn into snake food!"
Annd there goes me, without a second of hesitation, "I'LL TAKE HIM!!!(╯°Д°）╯"
And that's the story of how "luinlote met Usagi!" or, rather, the story of how Emma suddenly went home carrying a box with a super scared bunny and suddenly had to take responsibility for anyone other than herself for the first time in her life. I am still a bit "!!!" about it sometimes, but we're doing fine and have become good friends. I just want him to stop chewing my wallpapers. XDDDD He is curious and very social so if you ever come here he is likely to come smell your feet and try to make you feed him. His favorites are apple slizes and crisp bread. :3333
Word 4: All the info/files ever *_*
I'm a maaaad hoarder/collector when it comes to takitsuba. I think I have somehow managed to get most of anything, ever? Of course there are still certain things missing, but thanks to dear friends in Japan, friends who have been fans for a loooong long time, I think I have managed to get most of my takitsuba collection pretty much complete. I think one of my biggest feelings of joy was when me and curiosa_cabinet got two huge bags filled with 50 or 60 old videotapes with old takitsuba junior TV shows. We sat for sooo long watching through SO many of the old MUSIC JUMP and MUSIC ENTA episodes that night that I can't even remember. We sat giggling for hours and hours. XD
I am really proud of the takitsuba collection I've managed to get these past 8 years and I think that if there is something you want or need chances are big I might have it, be it a fancam or a random newsclip from 2006, or a strange junior show you heard about! : DDDD I don't even think I managed to watch through it all myself yet? If you want something, don't hesitate to ask - am more than happy to share, but I am also very busy and forgetful, so chances are I might forget to upload - don't feel bad for poking me again and again, it's the only way to help me remember! ♥♥♥
My fandom wish is to have the time to share more stuff! AND ONE DAY, I WILL MANAGE, I SWEAR! : DDDD
Word 5: T&T
Ahh, where to even begin. I don't even know. I love them. I love them so so much it is impossible to describe. I don't think anyone who's not in a fandom knows what I talk about when I say it - people at work still don't even know the half of it.
But these two. I still remember the very first thing I saw with them, when I saw it. It was the KAMEN PV and I stumbled across it not exactly randomly. I remember how floored I got right away. The dancing, the costumes, how HANDSOME the lighter one was (Yes, believe it or not - I noticed Takki first!) and then when they stood fancing each other, taking of each others masks... the slash lover in me couldn't believe this was true there was such TENSION there. And I googled and I searched and I hunted the internet down for every single little thing I could find. This was summer 2005 and I spent ALL summer looking though things, buying every DVD I could find, searching for songs, PV's... and the more I saw the more I loved them.
And it's still like that today. I love them more and more every day. How hard they work. How mush they've grown. I love them as persons, as idols and as role models. I love watching them, I love drooling over them, I never feel as happy or as alive as when I see them in concerts. During rough periods of my life the help me cope (Up until late spring in 2010, I had the most horrible job that I hated - they helped me get through it) and when things are good, they make evrything even better.
I love them together. Their relationship makes me believe that true love exist, makes me believe there are soulmates out there, made for each other.
They're the most amazing persons, and I am so proud to be their fan, every single day. I want to tell them one day - I sadly didn't manage to do it on the handshake event in Sendai - that I am proud and grateful for being their fan, how important they are and how much they mean in my every day life. I just want to thank them for all the joy they have given me, and still give me. ♥
I remember so well one day when one of my coworkers asked me (she is very sweet, but also very conservative) when she thought this idol-infatuation would pass. I laughed, and explain that I love them, but I am not in love with them. I have no kind of disillusions that they will one day see me at a concert and fall in love with me, which most people outside of fandom seems to think. But I love them, even so.
She asked me what would happen if I met someone who wouldn't accept them, would say that I had to choose. And it's SO easy for me - of course I'd choose takitsuba. I did choose takitsuba, when it came to that. I told her that and she stared open mouthed at me, told me with so much sympathy in her voice that she hoped it'll pass. And I told her that I never, ever, ever want it to pass. Because I love them more than anything, and I'd never give them up, ever. Because they're always there to cheer me up, they've been a bigger part of my life than anything.
If anyone outside of (a) fandom reads this, I'm going to sound like a crazy person. XDDD
But still. The joy they give me, all the good times they've given me though these years. The wonderful friends I got though this fandom. All these surges of FEELINGS that makes me feel like I'm on the tp of the world, the time I spend hunting down Tsubasa's damn ippen essays (ONLY TWO MISSING NOW YOSHAAAA!), the insane concert and butai trips I've been on (I've seen them, unit and solo, 45 times now), the research project of scrutinizing every look they ever give each other, every thing they say about each other to proove their married-ness . I could never ever give that up.
I just really really love them. More than anything, I love them.
And now I've made myself weepy, thinking about how much they mean to me. ♥♥♥
Ahhhh, sorry Athu, I think I went a bit overboard with my ramblings! TOO MANY WORDS XDDDD But when I get going, it's difficult for me to stop ha ha haa!
If anyone else wants to do this meme, here goes:
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Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.
- - -
And now it's time for me to sleep. I've been feeling a bit better today than I have lately... or, rather, I did in the afternoon. After I'd slept for 13 hours last night, and then a two hour nap during the day... so I hope to sleep for a long long time tonight as well, and maybe finally get back to almost-normal energy level after this weekend is done... right now I think I am feeling slightly better at least. ^^ My mom and sister was over for a while this evening and we watched Avatar and had vanilla milkshakes, so they gave me a lot of positive energy. ♥ And tomorrow, believe it or not, I am going to a game in the ice hockey world cup with D-san.We're watching the Canada-Czech Republic and it's going to be... interesting. D-san loooves ice-hockey so I'm taking her as a birthday present! It's my first ice-hockey game so I'm not sure what to expect ha ha ha! XDDD