tiredness
It's been a really rough week. X_X I've got practically no energy left - I've worked for so many hours and I'm absolutely beat. It's lunch time and I'm still walking around aimlessly in my apartment, still wearing my sleeping clothes, lol! ^^;;;
Since we were so tired yesterday me and D-san watched SHOGUN and had some indian food after work and we were practically comatose, both of us, lol! We watched the first episode of shogun and I'm loving it so far - I read the book this summer and loved it, so I've been looking forward to watching the mini series. Ah, Richard Chamberlain was so handsome, too! ♥
Today, it's exactly one month left before we attend the first Takitsuba OUR FUTURE con in Yoyogi Stadium!! Ahhh I am so excited! After readin con reports and seeing paparazzi pictures I'm all giddy and so super excited! I miss them so so so much and I just want to be there NOW! Everything about these concs sounds so awesome and from everything I've read they seem happier than ever before! *_* I can't wait to see everything with my own eyes, too! And I still need to get going and exchange my money, lol... I was meaning to do it weeks ago, but ah. X_X
To something completely different. These past few weeks I've had a lot on my mind, and it feels so great to finally have come up with a conclusion and to get a bit at peace with it. You know how there are people in your life that you absolutely need - for me, that's my closest friends, and it's also my family. And there are people you spend great parts of your day with - like your collegues. And I guess, somehow, these people are the ones that are sort of necessary for me in life. My workmates because I spend so much time with them, and I need to get along to get though the day.
And then there are my family that I love more than anything. And then there are my closest, besest friends whom I also love so so much - some of them I meet practically every day, and some of them I meet as often as I possibly can even though it's not nearly as often as I would like to at all... and then some of them are on the other side of the earth studying tea. ^_~ ♥ But I still know that they're always always there no matter what happens. And I try to be there for them as best as I can, as well. These are the people that makes me nothing but happy, all the time.
And then there are people that you absolutely don't need in your life. I've thought about it and talked it through with friends and... I've finally realized that, and accepted it. I've always tried to get along with everyone, always, always. And sometimes I'm trying so hard and... for what? For always feeling guilty or bad or worried or whatever. But as of now, I feel really relieved to have finally realized that I don't owe anyone anything, not really, and people that makes me feel bad, or feel guilty, or makes me feel sad, or even indifferent... maybe I don't need to try so hard anymore. A weight's lifted from my shoudlers. :)
Since we were so tired yesterday me and D-san watched SHOGUN and had some indian food after work and we were practically comatose, both of us, lol! We watched the first episode of shogun and I'm loving it so far - I read the book this summer and loved it, so I've been looking forward to watching the mini series. Ah, Richard Chamberlain was so handsome, too! ♥
Today, it's exactly one month left before we attend the first Takitsuba OUR FUTURE con in Yoyogi Stadium!! Ahhh I am so excited! After readin con reports and seeing paparazzi pictures I'm all giddy and so super excited! I miss them so so so much and I just want to be there NOW! Everything about these concs sounds so awesome and from everything I've read they seem happier than ever before! *_* I can't wait to see everything with my own eyes, too! And I still need to get going and exchange my money, lol... I was meaning to do it weeks ago, but ah. X_X
To something completely different. These past few weeks I've had a lot on my mind, and it feels so great to finally have come up with a conclusion and to get a bit at peace with it. You know how there are people in your life that you absolutely need - for me, that's my closest friends, and it's also my family. And there are people you spend great parts of your day with - like your collegues. And I guess, somehow, these people are the ones that are sort of necessary for me in life. My workmates because I spend so much time with them, and I need to get along to get though the day.
And then there are my family that I love more than anything. And then there are my closest, besest friends whom I also love so so much - some of them I meet practically every day, and some of them I meet as often as I possibly can even though it's not nearly as often as I would like to at all... and then some of them are on the other side of the earth studying tea. ^_~ ♥ But I still know that they're always always there no matter what happens. And I try to be there for them as best as I can, as well. These are the people that makes me nothing but happy, all the time.
And then there are people that you absolutely don't need in your life. I've thought about it and talked it through with friends and... I've finally realized that, and accepted it. I've always tried to get along with everyone, always, always. And sometimes I'm trying so hard and... for what? For always feeling guilty or bad or worried or whatever. But as of now, I feel really relieved to have finally realized that I don't owe anyone anything, not really, and people that makes me feel bad, or feel guilty, or makes me feel sad, or even indifferent... maybe I don't need to try so hard anymore. A weight's lifted from my shoudlers. :)