can't sleep... clown will eat me... can't sleep... clown will eat me...
Well, it's after five now, I've been in bed for almost seven hours, and I can't sleep. So this is what that's like. I've basically given up on the whole thing. Hopefully by tomorrow night (tonight) I'll be exhausted.
I finished the series of the X-Files tonight. Unfortunately, the series finale was as disappointing as the entire last season. Oh well, c'est la vie. At least I can do something else with my nights now.
Apparantly not sleep, though.
So, Carly's post a while ago (11/05/05, I believe) got me thinking about the stuff I want to say but for various reasons couldn't. I thought I'd give it a shot now, as I'm just the right blend of frustrated, tired, and out of it to entirely deny my actions should gigantic problems come of them.
(Some of these pertain to more than one person, some people might have several items, some might not have any. Some I threw in there to keep people guessing. Each stands alone.)
-We've drifted apart over the last couple years. I find it sad, yet every time I see you, I feel that we shouldn't try to make a friendship where there apparantly isn't going to be one anymore.
-You seem really cold and heartless at times, but you're usually right. And I thank you for that, even though I never could at the time. Because it just pisses me off.
-You seem like a really cool guy, but I don't know if we'll ever be friends. It's sad, but probably for the best.
-I wish you hadn't made the lifestyle choices you did, but in other ways, I'm kinda thankful for it.
-I miss our conversations, but I can't talk to you without feeling like I'm something I'm not.
-You're a horrendous, lazy jackass, but I can't get upset at you, 'cause I'm the same way, I'm just quieter about it.
-I hate feeling like your mom every time I need to talk to you.
-The problems you've had in your life make mine pale in comparison. For this, I feel proud to be your friend.
-Damn you. Damn you to hell.
-I hate to admit it, but you ARE the prince of magic.
-I keep feeling like I'm letting you down every time I do something wrong. It's not because of anything you do, it's just how much I want to impress you.
-You're the coolest person I'm going to terribly miss when you, or I, or both leave.
-I keep thinking of you as you were when we first met, but you've grown so, so much since then, and I'm glad to still know you.
-You're a great guy, and a vital part of the team, I just wish we weren't so damn awkward around each other.
-You make me wish I had a spine, back when I really needed it.
-You give 'POOP' a whole plethora of new uses. And while I'm thankful for it, I'm sure a lot of people are getting tired of it.
-You're really cool, and I don't tell you that enough. You remind me of me, and it's scary, but I'm sure you'll turn out okay. I just wish things were easier for you.
-I'm amazed you have the courage to have done what you did, and I'm glad we got to hang out for a while. Maybe we will again sometime.
-I wish I could help you out when you needed it, but I can't know you're hurting unless you tell me.
-I wish I knew where I stood with you. Although what fun would that be?
I'm done. I'm gonna go stare at my ceiling for a while, hopefully I'll sleep.
Probably not, though.
I finished the series of the X-Files tonight. Unfortunately, the series finale was as disappointing as the entire last season. Oh well, c'est la vie. At least I can do something else with my nights now.
Apparantly not sleep, though.
So, Carly's post a while ago (11/05/05, I believe) got me thinking about the stuff I want to say but for various reasons couldn't. I thought I'd give it a shot now, as I'm just the right blend of frustrated, tired, and out of it to entirely deny my actions should gigantic problems come of them.
(Some of these pertain to more than one person, some people might have several items, some might not have any. Some I threw in there to keep people guessing. Each stands alone.)
-We've drifted apart over the last couple years. I find it sad, yet every time I see you, I feel that we shouldn't try to make a friendship where there apparantly isn't going to be one anymore.
-You seem really cold and heartless at times, but you're usually right. And I thank you for that, even though I never could at the time. Because it just pisses me off.
-You seem like a really cool guy, but I don't know if we'll ever be friends. It's sad, but probably for the best.
-I wish you hadn't made the lifestyle choices you did, but in other ways, I'm kinda thankful for it.
-I miss our conversations, but I can't talk to you without feeling like I'm something I'm not.
-You're a horrendous, lazy jackass, but I can't get upset at you, 'cause I'm the same way, I'm just quieter about it.
-I hate feeling like your mom every time I need to talk to you.
-The problems you've had in your life make mine pale in comparison. For this, I feel proud to be your friend.
-Damn you. Damn you to hell.
-I hate to admit it, but you ARE the prince of magic.
-I keep feeling like I'm letting you down every time I do something wrong. It's not because of anything you do, it's just how much I want to impress you.
-You're the coolest person I'm going to terribly miss when you, or I, or both leave.
-I keep thinking of you as you were when we first met, but you've grown so, so much since then, and I'm glad to still know you.
-You're a great guy, and a vital part of the team, I just wish we weren't so damn awkward around each other.
-You make me wish I had a spine, back when I really needed it.
-You give 'POOP' a whole plethora of new uses. And while I'm thankful for it, I'm sure a lot of people are getting tired of it.
-You're really cool, and I don't tell you that enough. You remind me of me, and it's scary, but I'm sure you'll turn out okay. I just wish things were easier for you.
-I'm amazed you have the courage to have done what you did, and I'm glad we got to hang out for a while. Maybe we will again sometime.
-I wish I could help you out when you needed it, but I can't know you're hurting unless you tell me.
-I wish I knew where I stood with you. Although what fun would that be?
I'm done. I'm gonna go stare at my ceiling for a while, hopefully I'll sleep.
Probably not, though.