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Today I crossed off one major milestone that I've been trying to hit, again and again. I passed my driving theory test.
But only just about passed mind, I felt like utter shit, my illness has sort of come back and I also had to get a chest x-ray done today. Also on my way I spotted a lesser seen Jessica, interesting...
Anyway, at worst this means my Asthma has been brought back (or nothing at all, still possible) and at worst... heck I can't even say what could be the worst, but let's just hope that this x-ray comes back clear. Best possible outcome? nothings wrong with me, and the infection I had just hasn't quite gone yet :)
I am starting to get seriously worried about my career, I'm worried that I'm quickly heading towards a dead end with no way out, and may have wasted my time... I can't just assume though, I need to find some external guidance. Problem is that such guidance is going to be very scarce, we are after all a tiny industry within a tiny industry. Much like those Russian dolls. I'm starting to think that being the ONLY person in the entire WORLD doing my job is potentially a disadvantage, not an advantage... how the hell did I get myself into this position!
I guess, ultimately, I'm scared I'm not seen as smart enough. Wow, that was hard to type out, even on a place that isn't seen by anyone.
But only just about passed mind, I felt like utter shit, my illness has sort of come back and I also had to get a chest x-ray done today. Also on my way I spotted a lesser seen Jessica, interesting...
Anyway, at worst this means my Asthma has been brought back (or nothing at all, still possible) and at worst... heck I can't even say what could be the worst, but let's just hope that this x-ray comes back clear. Best possible outcome? nothings wrong with me, and the infection I had just hasn't quite gone yet :)
I am starting to get seriously worried about my career, I'm worried that I'm quickly heading towards a dead end with no way out, and may have wasted my time... I can't just assume though, I need to find some external guidance. Problem is that such guidance is going to be very scarce, we are after all a tiny industry within a tiny industry. Much like those Russian dolls. I'm starting to think that being the ONLY person in the entire WORLD doing my job is potentially a disadvantage, not an advantage... how the hell did I get myself into this position!
I guess, ultimately, I'm scared I'm not seen as smart enough. Wow, that was hard to type out, even on a place that isn't seen by anyone.