when september ends

[lugan4ever]

you know when you get those really late middle of the night phone calls and you know its never good? yea that happened last night. my senelis(grandpa) has been in the hospital for the past week and a half just about and its just not good. he had a really bad blood clot in his leg. and then he had to be transferred to christ 3 days ago and almost couldve lost his leg. he had 2 emergencies surgeries and has been in intensive care for the past 3 days. i dont really know whats goin on now but im assuming its affecting his whole body now. the phone rang and then 2 seconds later my dad barges into my room crying(i think) saying "senelis isnt doing good at all. me and mom have to go to the hospital. we wont be here when you wake up." this was 1:30 in the morning. thats not what you want to hear. plus your mom bawling downstairs before they leave. my brother wasnt woken up. after they left i couldnt go back to bed. so i went downstairs turned on the tv and finished my senior shirt cuz i had no idea what else to do. so i was down there till 3 in the morning. tried to go back to bed. maybe fell back asleep around 4. woke up at like 6. watched tv a lil. fell back asleep. mom called at like 7:40. senelis still wasnt doing well. came to school.
well i just got back from my counselor. i just called my mom quickly from her office. she was about to talk to the doctor but she said he still isnt doing good at all. **sigh** i just want to break down and cry but im in school and i cant. i dunno if im gonna go to my internship. i know i should. but ill just be miserable the whole time. so its just sucks. i dont know know how else to desribe it. damn my lack of vocabulary. whatever im over it. i got lunch to attend.

grrrrrrrrrrreat............i just remembered my dream from last night. FUCK!!!!