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.... I wish you were naked
I wish you were wholesome and sincere
I wish I could fake it
I wish we were
ANYWHERE BUT HERE
Even so
You make yes look like no
Even so
You've been so nice
So nice
Been so nice to know
But no
Oh no
No, no, no, no
I just can't help it anymore. I can't deny that everything feels wrong. Not bad. Not wrist slitinly painful. Just wrong. Fucked up. Lost. I want it to stop. I want to be held. Comforted. I grew up spoiled with attention, not things, but kindness. And I miss it terribly. I long for it. Is anybody out there? Does anybody here me? Come hold me... love me... need me... I spend my days working, crying, and sleeping. Not a day goes by that I don't think about that asshole. Not a single one. I would take it all back the abuse, the negitive bank account, the lying, cheating, stealing, embarrassment just for one brief second of certainty. I don't know if it's the size of my jeans that keeps you from loving me or something embeded deep within my personality but I can't bear to wake up lonely anymore...
I wish you were wholesome and sincere
I wish I could fake it
I wish we were
ANYWHERE BUT HERE
Even so
You make yes look like no
Even so
You've been so nice
So nice
Been so nice to know
But no
Oh no
No, no, no, no
I just can't help it anymore. I can't deny that everything feels wrong. Not bad. Not wrist slitinly painful. Just wrong. Fucked up. Lost. I want it to stop. I want to be held. Comforted. I grew up spoiled with attention, not things, but kindness. And I miss it terribly. I long for it. Is anybody out there? Does anybody here me? Come hold me... love me... need me... I spend my days working, crying, and sleeping. Not a day goes by that I don't think about that asshole. Not a single one. I would take it all back the abuse, the negitive bank account, the lying, cheating, stealing, embarrassment just for one brief second of certainty. I don't know if it's the size of my jeans that keeps you from loving me or something embeded deep within my personality but I can't bear to wake up lonely anymore...