a day in the life...
so yeah, i woke up this morning so prepared to call that guy and just flat out say, "hey, you know what, i wanted to tell you think before you left, but basically, i'm completely infatuated with you" and you know what? when i called, he was gone for work. when i called later, his answering machine picked up. maybe he already knows. maybe it's a sign from God saying, "dooon't teeeeel hiiiim". i dunno, but i'm gonna try again tomorrow. someone made a very good point: if this guy was to die in the next week, and i never told him how i felt, i would really regret it.
last night, i talked to hillary on the phone until three in morning. can you believe that? i haven't had a talk that long in like two or three years! so today we went with jessica to the mall, and then we went to open house, and then we went to on the border for dinner. i got to meet some new people, so that was nice.
i can't wait for tomorrow. youth group anyway. tomorrow can wait. but not youth group. it's my last chance to finally tell this person how i feel. you know, i'm not in love with this guy, but i'm definately pretty infatuated, and it sucks. how can someone who has a crush honestly say they're in love? i mean, doesn't love (at least romantic/intimate love) have to be mutual?
well, i hope i finally end up getting a chance to talk to this guy. this is putting me through so much crap i'm so close to getting mad at him, lol. nah, i could never get mad at him. jeez, i'm so pathetic. i hate liking guys, not that i would like girls, but i guess i should have said i hate when i like a guy. then i get all mopey and crappy and nervous and anxious and awkward and excited over stupid things and then i just usually feel like a dork. ugh, i don't know what i'm going to do when he leaves...
on the up side, i'm glad that i'm starting to know a whole ton of people. everyone here is so nice! i can't get over it. i mean, i should say, everyone is nice on the outside. when you get one individual they'll go on about that person and how annoying/sluttish/stupid/or pathetic they are. i really hope if someone feels that way towards me, that they'll just flat out tell me. cuz it always sucks when you find out from someone else. so i'm just gonna try to get in good with everyone here. i don't think anyone hates me yet, and i hope that if someone does, they'll let me know.
HEAR THAT FELLOW READERS??? IF YOU HATE ME, PLEASE LET ME KNOW... ok, anyway, time for a subject change.
i haven't gotten much sleep for the past few months, and when i start school, i KNOW that i'm not. that's one thing i hate about school. everything is so time consuming. now that school is so close, i don't want it to start. i was all for it yesterday. but not anymore. you know what readers? i'm gonna use this livejournal thing as a place to post up my poems...hhmm...either here or on my subprofile on my screen name. well, i'm gonna get going...
free to sail along with time~
Larissa
last night, i talked to hillary on the phone until three in morning. can you believe that? i haven't had a talk that long in like two or three years! so today we went with jessica to the mall, and then we went to open house, and then we went to on the border for dinner. i got to meet some new people, so that was nice.
i can't wait for tomorrow. youth group anyway. tomorrow can wait. but not youth group. it's my last chance to finally tell this person how i feel. you know, i'm not in love with this guy, but i'm definately pretty infatuated, and it sucks. how can someone who has a crush honestly say they're in love? i mean, doesn't love (at least romantic/intimate love) have to be mutual?
well, i hope i finally end up getting a chance to talk to this guy. this is putting me through so much crap i'm so close to getting mad at him, lol. nah, i could never get mad at him. jeez, i'm so pathetic. i hate liking guys, not that i would like girls, but i guess i should have said i hate when i like a guy. then i get all mopey and crappy and nervous and anxious and awkward and excited over stupid things and then i just usually feel like a dork. ugh, i don't know what i'm going to do when he leaves...
on the up side, i'm glad that i'm starting to know a whole ton of people. everyone here is so nice! i can't get over it. i mean, i should say, everyone is nice on the outside. when you get one individual they'll go on about that person and how annoying/sluttish/stupid/or pathetic they are. i really hope if someone feels that way towards me, that they'll just flat out tell me. cuz it always sucks when you find out from someone else. so i'm just gonna try to get in good with everyone here. i don't think anyone hates me yet, and i hope that if someone does, they'll let me know.
HEAR THAT FELLOW READERS??? IF YOU HATE ME, PLEASE LET ME KNOW... ok, anyway, time for a subject change.
i haven't gotten much sleep for the past few months, and when i start school, i KNOW that i'm not. that's one thing i hate about school. everything is so time consuming. now that school is so close, i don't want it to start. i was all for it yesterday. but not anymore. you know what readers? i'm gonna use this livejournal thing as a place to post up my poems...hhmm...either here or on my subprofile on my screen name. well, i'm gonna get going...
free to sail along with time~
Larissa