i will not stress out, i will not stress out, i will not stress out...
five hours of studying. i'm working on tuesday and thursday until 830. test on monday,youth choir practice on monday, morning women's ensemble on tuesday, essay due wednesday, youth on wednesday, band practice on tuesday, missing prayer group on thursday, and friday? nothing...yet... saturday-already working, but at least i know that i have next sunday off.
after stressing out over my test i realized something: this is one test over a year's worth of AP Euro. even if i failed monday's test--which is highly unlikely. and got a D on my essay test due wednesday--more likely. i have a whole year to find out what i did wrong, and raise my grade. thus:
i will not stress out.
first day of school went smoothly with only a few minor loose threads: my locker wouldn't open, forgot my book in self's class, i felt bad about being in regular choir (which means no feast for me this year...*tear*...), and i freaked out about ap euro...etc.etc.etc.
but then, i met so many new people, i realized that there are other people who don't know who they are or where they belong, who feel equally alone, and just want someone else...it was nice.
i find myself amused by the smallest things, as well as distracted by the smallest things. i see things and then i come up with stories or situations and i act as though i am my own character in this story. i AM the haggard old woman alone in her home, with no one but her cat. i AM the little girl who delights in puddle jumping. i am the shy introvert who remains feeble among those older than i am.
often, i feel out of place. i'm the one who refused to sit at lunch unless i knew where the "group" is going to sit. i looked for people that i know in hallways before i sit or stand or etc. i always felt alone because i felt that way.
however, i had this realization over the summer. i'm going to sit where i want to sit. and if no one sits with me--more time to study or read or write. if others sit with me, great! but that's what happened. i sat at my tree because, well, it's my tree and i claim it. others did come and sit with me and lunch was very entertaining. i found people in each class that i can enjoy myself with. i'm trying my best to stay patient and calm and stress free, but i'm definately going to have to go to sleep for that to work properly.
life moves by faster if you look forward to the future.
after stressing out over my test i realized something: this is one test over a year's worth of AP Euro. even if i failed monday's test--which is highly unlikely. and got a D on my essay test due wednesday--more likely. i have a whole year to find out what i did wrong, and raise my grade. thus:
i will not stress out.
first day of school went smoothly with only a few minor loose threads: my locker wouldn't open, forgot my book in self's class, i felt bad about being in regular choir (which means no feast for me this year...*tear*...), and i freaked out about ap euro...etc.etc.etc.
but then, i met so many new people, i realized that there are other people who don't know who they are or where they belong, who feel equally alone, and just want someone else...it was nice.
i find myself amused by the smallest things, as well as distracted by the smallest things. i see things and then i come up with stories or situations and i act as though i am my own character in this story. i AM the haggard old woman alone in her home, with no one but her cat. i AM the little girl who delights in puddle jumping. i am the shy introvert who remains feeble among those older than i am.
often, i feel out of place. i'm the one who refused to sit at lunch unless i knew where the "group" is going to sit. i looked for people that i know in hallways before i sit or stand or etc. i always felt alone because i felt that way.
however, i had this realization over the summer. i'm going to sit where i want to sit. and if no one sits with me--more time to study or read or write. if others sit with me, great! but that's what happened. i sat at my tree because, well, it's my tree and i claim it. others did come and sit with me and lunch was very entertaining. i found people in each class that i can enjoy myself with. i'm trying my best to stay patient and calm and stress free, but i'm definately going to have to go to sleep for that to work properly.
life moves by faster if you look forward to the future.