i should work...
...but i've been laid off.
i should stop drinking coffee, but its both mentally and physically the most challenging thing i think i could even embark upon.
i look at myself in light of it all and i don't know myself. i really, really don't.
life is weird.
we all just want different things
expect different things
have different priorities.
but what does it all come down to?
the briefness of the time we are here.
will we comeback
as another...
and if so do we get to recall whom we were before
and if not, are we really the same person?
does it really matter?
my aunt pointed out, that when they are all dead (my parents generation), my brother and i will really have no family. that breaks my heart because when the shit hits the fan, they are really the only ones who will be there for you without fail, without asking and without expectations.
wow negativity... purge thyself because that bullshit gets you nowhere. and then again, i could be more negative and say that the only person i can ever rely on is myself. which is probably true
in the grand scheme of this life
and i wished sorely to believe in something more solid, eternal and comforting than this life.
i should stop drinking coffee, but its both mentally and physically the most challenging thing i think i could even embark upon.
i look at myself in light of it all and i don't know myself. i really, really don't.
life is weird.
we all just want different things
expect different things
have different priorities.
but what does it all come down to?
the briefness of the time we are here.
will we comeback
as another...
and if so do we get to recall whom we were before
and if not, are we really the same person?
does it really matter?
my aunt pointed out, that when they are all dead (my parents generation), my brother and i will really have no family. that breaks my heart because when the shit hits the fan, they are really the only ones who will be there for you without fail, without asking and without expectations.
wow negativity... purge thyself because that bullshit gets you nowhere. and then again, i could be more negative and say that the only person i can ever rely on is myself. which is probably true
in the grand scheme of this life
and i wished sorely to believe in something more solid, eternal and comforting than this life.