Alias: Imperfections (10/10)
Title: Imperfections (10/10)
Pairing: Syd/Vaughn, Vaughn/Lauren
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler: Crossings
Summary: How can you force your mind to choose when your heart is halved by these two women you love? Slightly AU
Chapter 10
"We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate"
(Delicate - Damien Rice)
Vaughn woke up startled by a bad dream he had. He wasn't sure of what it was exactly, but it was one of those mornings when you wake up with a bad feeling and you just know by intuition it was a bad dream. His heart was beating fast and he was trembling lightly, taking in deep breaths to calm down.
He opened his eyes and stretched in bed, rolling on his back. He closed his eyes again for a moment to remember the dream and in all of sudden it was there, a vivid reminiscence of what scared him. He had a dream with Syd where he found her bleeding by her stab injuries and just couldn't do anything to save her and she died in his arms. The sensation was so horrible that he felt the urge to jump of the bed to find her and take her warm body in his arms and make sure she was still ok. Silly him, of course she was. That was just a dream, he told himself.
With his eyes still closed, he relished in the warmth of the sun, the brightness he could sense through his closed eyelids. The bed by his side was still warm, a sign that she hasn't left it for that long, but still, the summer heat would keep everything warm. Vaughn sit on the bed, realizing the noise of the water falling on the bathroom. She was taking a shower, like she did every morning.
It was his idea that they moved in together. It was such a natural process, once he was there with her since she returned from the hospital and he refused to leave her alone. He would stay by her side to watch her sleep and make sure she would heal ok, with no problems. She called him guardian angel and he would joke, saying he was more like a guardian dog.
It has been almost three months since she was back and their life couldn't be any better. Their personal life, specially, when their work would be surrounded by the madness, like it always would, they still had each other to lean on, to support and to keep the sanity.
Vaughn stood in bed a few more minutes, until the water stopped in the bathroom and she left, wrapped in a blue towel. She looked beautiful with her wet locks falling down her shoulder and the fruit scent she brought with her from the bath. Sydney smiled when she saw him, a goofy look on his face.
"What?" she chuckled.
"You"
"Yeah, that's me"
With one of those cute boyish smiles of him, he crawled to the edge of the bed and stood on his knees, pulling her to him. Syd giggled, the feel of his hot breath against her cool skin sent shivers down her spine and weakness to her knees. Vaughn planted wet little kisses all over her chest, going up to her neck, sucking lightly at her sweet-from-bath tasted skin. He wrapped his arms around her, his hands tugging the towel from around her back until it loosened from her body and fell to the floor, leaving her naked in front of him. He reached for her mouth, shifting on the bed to pull her to join him, while his hand playfully sneaked to her breast, kneading it softly, making her moan into his mouth.
"We're gonna be late for work" she mumbled, while he pulled her closer and then laid her against the bed. She fell limp by his touches.
"It's Sunday" he whispered, returning to his task of kissing her, pressing his body against her. Syd's hands slipped under his shirt to touch his back, raking his skin lightly until she reached the hem of his boxers, which she playfully tugged.
"Damn it, why did I woke up so early?"
"I would wake you up anyway" he turned on his side, pulling her with him, nibbling her shoulder. He slid a bit so he could reach her breasts, sucking a nipple into his mouth, causing her to moan unconsciously.
"Oh, god, Vaughn...." she whispered, holding the fabric of his shirt in her fist. "Take of this clothes, I wanna touch you"
He chuckled against her chest, entangling himself from her to strip his clothes, under her intense gaze. It was like she had fire in her eyes and it was burning, as she laid lazily, looking at him with her flushed skin and swollen lips. He removed his clothes quickly, returning to the task of kissing Sydney, pressing her body against his already semi-hard cock. Before he could react, she flipped so she was on top, straddling his legs, sitting on his thighs. She had that mischievous smile on her face as she bent to nibble his lower lip.
"You're so gorgeous, baby..." she said, hoarsely. Syd raked his chest with her teeth, her wet hair tickling him, eventually soothing him with wet kisses and a lap of her tongue, enjoying his sharps intakes of breath as a response, making his belly tighten as he tried to keep himself under control.
Syd playfully caressed the soft hair above his groin, circling his navel with the tip of her finger and moving down until she reached his cock.
"Yes..." he hissed as she clenched lightly around him, massaging him until he was fully hard in her hands. She held him firmly by the base and leaned forwards to take him in her mouth. She teased him with the tip of her tongue sliding slowly over his tip, tasting the pre-cum that gathered there. Vaughn buckled against her, desperately wanting her to take him as deep as she could. He held her head in his hands to encourage her, as she opened her mouth wider to take him in.
"Oh, god, yes..." he manage to pant out while she sucked him, as she touched his balls to feel him tightening, trying hard not to come right away. Syd stopped and sit again, staring back at Vaughn.
"Fucking or love-making?" Syd whispered.
"Fucking" he said, as she rose above him to take him into her. She slid slowly, enjoying the feel of his hardness stretching her from inside, both sighing from the sensation. It never failed to send shivers down her spine whenever he entered her.
Syd stopped for a moment, looking down at him, so beautiful, with his eyes closed and an expression of sheer bliss on his face. She started to move, slowly, increasing the pace along with his breathing and soft moans escaping his mouth, making the wetness between her legs increase by each thrust. Vaughn pushed into her unconsciously, kneading her hips. Syd, looking for supported, leaned slightly against his chest, supporting her weight on his shoulders.
"Look at me, baby" she said breathless, speeding up the pace. Vaughn's eyelids fluttered open and his eyes met hers, in a burning and intense gaze, so full of love and lust. He loved her so much, so much beyond words that it almost choked him sometimes, when he thought of it. The feel of her skin against his hands, as they wandered everywhere, over her belly, the healing scars there, the softness of her breasts, the smoothness of her skin; and the knowledge that he was this close of losing her again would send goosebumps to his skin.
"Come here" he called her. Syd leaned against him, letting his arms envelop her in a protective manner, wrapping themselves around her as he kissed her lovingly. Vaughn rolled so he was atop her now, still thrusting into her, supporting his weight on his elbows, his forearms framing her face.
Vaughn slowed his pace, turning their fucking into a slow love-making, tangling her hair between his fingers, feeling breathless and so close he thought he would pass out. She opened her eyes, trying to figure out what was wrong.
"Vaughn?" she called.
"Are you close?"
"Not really, but that's ok, you can go"
"No, I'm taking you with me" he whispered, untangling his hand from her hair and moving it down to between her legs, touching her clit. Syd moaned loud, a startling sensation hitting her as he rubbed her harder, touching the right spot. It always amazed her how attentive he could be to such things, how he could remember exactly what she liked the most and knows when and what to do. He came inside her, never ceasing the teasing to her clit until she was gone too, a series of high-pitched whimpers echoing on his ears.
Vaughn fell limp over her, listening to her breathing calming down. He was still a bit shaken about the previous night dream and now his emotions seemed to overwhelm him, the feel of her against him, her hands absently smoothing his hair and back. Vaughn felt tears spilling down his eyes before he could try to hide it from her. Even in her state of post-coital bliss, she felt a hot tear wetting her neck and could hear him muffling a sniffle.
"Vaughn? What's going on?" she asked softly.
"Nothing" he said, kissing her neck and his way down her chest, slipping out of her, going down, burying his head between her breasts.
"Hey," Syd called "look at me, baby."
He hesitantly rose his head to meet her eyes. Vaughn felt a bash of embarrassment for crying and for letting her know he was crying. He quickly wiped the tears away.
"What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?"
He chuckled softly. Does she ever do anything wrong! And, still, she was thinking she might have done something to hurt him.
"No, you didn't." Vaughn said, cupping her face. He was now supporting his chin on her chest, looking up at her, eventually leaning to plant a kiss on her skin. "It's so silly I'm ashamed to say"
"Don't be. You have no reason to be ashamed with me."
"I know. But still... I don't want to be one of those guys, Syd, those guys who are insanely jealous when their girl talk to someone else. But I think that's exactly what I'm becoming."
"Since when you're the jealous type?" she said, laughing.
"I had a bad dream. A few minutes before you walk into the room I was waking up from it."
"What happened?"
"You were hurt and bleeding and there was nothing I could do but watch you die in my arms."
The thought of it alone was enough to make him choke the words in his throat. Syd caressed his forearm, pulling his hand from her face to kiss its palm, touched by his reaction.
"I'm right here. And I won't leave anymore."
"I couldn't stand losing you again."
"You won't. It's a promise."
Syd's hands moved to his hair, messing his dark blond strands. His eyes, staring intently at her with that hint of fear, were so green with the light of the sun that she lost herself staring into them; in fact, Syd could easily lose herself in Vaughn anytime. She pulled him for a quick kiss and tangled their legs together.
"We're gonna grow old together and we'll be like those old couples that, after a long happy marriage of 54 years, will die one after the other. If you go first, I promise, I'm gonna be unhappy until my last breath" she said with a grin on her face.
"I don't want you to be unhappy."
"There's no way I'm gonna be happy without you by my side. And that's why I'm gonna die."
"And what if you die first?" he asked, joining the game.
"I won't. I'll stay here and take care of you"
"Sounds like we have a plan."
"It is. How can we seal it?"
"Like this?" he said, moving up to kiss her. He closed his eyes and let her tongue slid into his mouth, lazily, slowly, taking her time to play with his lower lip. Syd caressed every inch of his tongue, slowly, taking her time to memorize it, as if she didn't know every part of him by heart now. He loved the way she held him close and fussed with his hair while kissing him, the way she moaned softly into his mouth, soft moans of appreciation that told him how much she enjoyed the simple act of just kissing him for minutes, for hours, until both of them were breathless and gasping out for air.
But not today, not now. They just kissed for a long time, slow loving kisses, stopping once in a while to stare lovingly into each other's eyes and sigh, utterly enthralled and in love.
THE END
Pairing: Syd/Vaughn, Vaughn/Lauren
Rating: NC-17
Spoiler: Crossings
Summary: How can you force your mind to choose when your heart is halved by these two women you love? Slightly AU
Chapter 10
"We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate"
(Delicate - Damien Rice)
Vaughn woke up startled by a bad dream he had. He wasn't sure of what it was exactly, but it was one of those mornings when you wake up with a bad feeling and you just know by intuition it was a bad dream. His heart was beating fast and he was trembling lightly, taking in deep breaths to calm down.
He opened his eyes and stretched in bed, rolling on his back. He closed his eyes again for a moment to remember the dream and in all of sudden it was there, a vivid reminiscence of what scared him. He had a dream with Syd where he found her bleeding by her stab injuries and just couldn't do anything to save her and she died in his arms. The sensation was so horrible that he felt the urge to jump of the bed to find her and take her warm body in his arms and make sure she was still ok. Silly him, of course she was. That was just a dream, he told himself.
With his eyes still closed, he relished in the warmth of the sun, the brightness he could sense through his closed eyelids. The bed by his side was still warm, a sign that she hasn't left it for that long, but still, the summer heat would keep everything warm. Vaughn sit on the bed, realizing the noise of the water falling on the bathroom. She was taking a shower, like she did every morning.
It was his idea that they moved in together. It was such a natural process, once he was there with her since she returned from the hospital and he refused to leave her alone. He would stay by her side to watch her sleep and make sure she would heal ok, with no problems. She called him guardian angel and he would joke, saying he was more like a guardian dog.
It has been almost three months since she was back and their life couldn't be any better. Their personal life, specially, when their work would be surrounded by the madness, like it always would, they still had each other to lean on, to support and to keep the sanity.
Vaughn stood in bed a few more minutes, until the water stopped in the bathroom and she left, wrapped in a blue towel. She looked beautiful with her wet locks falling down her shoulder and the fruit scent she brought with her from the bath. Sydney smiled when she saw him, a goofy look on his face.
"What?" she chuckled.
"You"
"Yeah, that's me"
With one of those cute boyish smiles of him, he crawled to the edge of the bed and stood on his knees, pulling her to him. Syd giggled, the feel of his hot breath against her cool skin sent shivers down her spine and weakness to her knees. Vaughn planted wet little kisses all over her chest, going up to her neck, sucking lightly at her sweet-from-bath tasted skin. He wrapped his arms around her, his hands tugging the towel from around her back until it loosened from her body and fell to the floor, leaving her naked in front of him. He reached for her mouth, shifting on the bed to pull her to join him, while his hand playfully sneaked to her breast, kneading it softly, making her moan into his mouth.
"We're gonna be late for work" she mumbled, while he pulled her closer and then laid her against the bed. She fell limp by his touches.
"It's Sunday" he whispered, returning to his task of kissing her, pressing his body against her. Syd's hands slipped under his shirt to touch his back, raking his skin lightly until she reached the hem of his boxers, which she playfully tugged.
"Damn it, why did I woke up so early?"
"I would wake you up anyway" he turned on his side, pulling her with him, nibbling her shoulder. He slid a bit so he could reach her breasts, sucking a nipple into his mouth, causing her to moan unconsciously.
"Oh, god, Vaughn...." she whispered, holding the fabric of his shirt in her fist. "Take of this clothes, I wanna touch you"
He chuckled against her chest, entangling himself from her to strip his clothes, under her intense gaze. It was like she had fire in her eyes and it was burning, as she laid lazily, looking at him with her flushed skin and swollen lips. He removed his clothes quickly, returning to the task of kissing Sydney, pressing her body against his already semi-hard cock. Before he could react, she flipped so she was on top, straddling his legs, sitting on his thighs. She had that mischievous smile on her face as she bent to nibble his lower lip.
"You're so gorgeous, baby..." she said, hoarsely. Syd raked his chest with her teeth, her wet hair tickling him, eventually soothing him with wet kisses and a lap of her tongue, enjoying his sharps intakes of breath as a response, making his belly tighten as he tried to keep himself under control.
Syd playfully caressed the soft hair above his groin, circling his navel with the tip of her finger and moving down until she reached his cock.
"Yes..." he hissed as she clenched lightly around him, massaging him until he was fully hard in her hands. She held him firmly by the base and leaned forwards to take him in her mouth. She teased him with the tip of her tongue sliding slowly over his tip, tasting the pre-cum that gathered there. Vaughn buckled against her, desperately wanting her to take him as deep as she could. He held her head in his hands to encourage her, as she opened her mouth wider to take him in.
"Oh, god, yes..." he manage to pant out while she sucked him, as she touched his balls to feel him tightening, trying hard not to come right away. Syd stopped and sit again, staring back at Vaughn.
"Fucking or love-making?" Syd whispered.
"Fucking" he said, as she rose above him to take him into her. She slid slowly, enjoying the feel of his hardness stretching her from inside, both sighing from the sensation. It never failed to send shivers down her spine whenever he entered her.
Syd stopped for a moment, looking down at him, so beautiful, with his eyes closed and an expression of sheer bliss on his face. She started to move, slowly, increasing the pace along with his breathing and soft moans escaping his mouth, making the wetness between her legs increase by each thrust. Vaughn pushed into her unconsciously, kneading her hips. Syd, looking for supported, leaned slightly against his chest, supporting her weight on his shoulders.
"Look at me, baby" she said breathless, speeding up the pace. Vaughn's eyelids fluttered open and his eyes met hers, in a burning and intense gaze, so full of love and lust. He loved her so much, so much beyond words that it almost choked him sometimes, when he thought of it. The feel of her skin against his hands, as they wandered everywhere, over her belly, the healing scars there, the softness of her breasts, the smoothness of her skin; and the knowledge that he was this close of losing her again would send goosebumps to his skin.
"Come here" he called her. Syd leaned against him, letting his arms envelop her in a protective manner, wrapping themselves around her as he kissed her lovingly. Vaughn rolled so he was atop her now, still thrusting into her, supporting his weight on his elbows, his forearms framing her face.
Vaughn slowed his pace, turning their fucking into a slow love-making, tangling her hair between his fingers, feeling breathless and so close he thought he would pass out. She opened her eyes, trying to figure out what was wrong.
"Vaughn?" she called.
"Are you close?"
"Not really, but that's ok, you can go"
"No, I'm taking you with me" he whispered, untangling his hand from her hair and moving it down to between her legs, touching her clit. Syd moaned loud, a startling sensation hitting her as he rubbed her harder, touching the right spot. It always amazed her how attentive he could be to such things, how he could remember exactly what she liked the most and knows when and what to do. He came inside her, never ceasing the teasing to her clit until she was gone too, a series of high-pitched whimpers echoing on his ears.
Vaughn fell limp over her, listening to her breathing calming down. He was still a bit shaken about the previous night dream and now his emotions seemed to overwhelm him, the feel of her against him, her hands absently smoothing his hair and back. Vaughn felt tears spilling down his eyes before he could try to hide it from her. Even in her state of post-coital bliss, she felt a hot tear wetting her neck and could hear him muffling a sniffle.
"Vaughn? What's going on?" she asked softly.
"Nothing" he said, kissing her neck and his way down her chest, slipping out of her, going down, burying his head between her breasts.
"Hey," Syd called "look at me, baby."
He hesitantly rose his head to meet her eyes. Vaughn felt a bash of embarrassment for crying and for letting her know he was crying. He quickly wiped the tears away.
"What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?"
He chuckled softly. Does she ever do anything wrong! And, still, she was thinking she might have done something to hurt him.
"No, you didn't." Vaughn said, cupping her face. He was now supporting his chin on her chest, looking up at her, eventually leaning to plant a kiss on her skin. "It's so silly I'm ashamed to say"
"Don't be. You have no reason to be ashamed with me."
"I know. But still... I don't want to be one of those guys, Syd, those guys who are insanely jealous when their girl talk to someone else. But I think that's exactly what I'm becoming."
"Since when you're the jealous type?" she said, laughing.
"I had a bad dream. A few minutes before you walk into the room I was waking up from it."
"What happened?"
"You were hurt and bleeding and there was nothing I could do but watch you die in my arms."
The thought of it alone was enough to make him choke the words in his throat. Syd caressed his forearm, pulling his hand from her face to kiss its palm, touched by his reaction.
"I'm right here. And I won't leave anymore."
"I couldn't stand losing you again."
"You won't. It's a promise."
Syd's hands moved to his hair, messing his dark blond strands. His eyes, staring intently at her with that hint of fear, were so green with the light of the sun that she lost herself staring into them; in fact, Syd could easily lose herself in Vaughn anytime. She pulled him for a quick kiss and tangled their legs together.
"We're gonna grow old together and we'll be like those old couples that, after a long happy marriage of 54 years, will die one after the other. If you go first, I promise, I'm gonna be unhappy until my last breath" she said with a grin on her face.
"I don't want you to be unhappy."
"There's no way I'm gonna be happy without you by my side. And that's why I'm gonna die."
"And what if you die first?" he asked, joining the game.
"I won't. I'll stay here and take care of you"
"Sounds like we have a plan."
"It is. How can we seal it?"
"Like this?" he said, moving up to kiss her. He closed his eyes and let her tongue slid into his mouth, lazily, slowly, taking her time to play with his lower lip. Syd caressed every inch of his tongue, slowly, taking her time to memorize it, as if she didn't know every part of him by heart now. He loved the way she held him close and fussed with his hair while kissing him, the way she moaned softly into his mouth, soft moans of appreciation that told him how much she enjoyed the simple act of just kissing him for minutes, for hours, until both of them were breathless and gasping out for air.
But not today, not now. They just kissed for a long time, slow loving kisses, stopping once in a while to stare lovingly into each other's eyes and sigh, utterly enthralled and in love.
THE END