this weather has me wanting love more tangible something I can hold cause its getting cold

[lucyintherye]

Man those lyrics mean so much to me right now ... Tonight it just hit me ... this incredible feeling of loneliness... it all started when i was talking to Bijan... we were talking about living in new york and i was telling him of how Id love to live in new york and how Id want a boyfriend that wears scarfs and mittens and Id kiss him in the snow and i think it was that exact moment that it hit me. I suddenly realized that i have absolutely nothing that makes me truely happy ... I realize how incredibly emo and pathetic that sounds but its absolutely true ... My friends make me happy but its not the same ... I just really want a boy thats interested in the same music as me and is as open about music as I am ...I want him to want to listen to bright eyes and then listen to Billy Idol and then Under Oath ... I want him to wear tight pants and scarfs and mittens and make up , ( Honestly he doesnt have to wear all of that , Im just throwing out some ideals ) but most of all I want a boy that is passionate about life and that would love nothing more than to go sit in a park with me on a saturday night after a show and just talk about things, like trees , life , music , cookies , I want someone I can make cookies for and take pictures of and someone who loves my sense of style , and that thinks Im incredibly cute and wants to kiss me ... I want a boy i can bring coffee too when he's sick and even when hes not ... I want a boy that will bring me coffee when Im sick and when Im not ... I want a boy that calls me at 3 am just to let me know hes thinking about me ... i want a loud boy that knows when to be quite, a sexual boy that knows when to hold hands and when to um sex me up ... a boy that drinks and smokes and even if he doesnt thinks its cute when i do ...a crafty boy that likes to make things with me like collages ... a boy that reads , a boy that adores the name holden as much as I do ... a boy that thinks Johnny Cash and Frank Sinatra are amazing ... um a boy that likes willie nelson and classic country of the sort ...a boy that loves animals and wants to persue veganism with me ...a boy with long hair , um but short is fine too ... a boy that lets me play guitar for him even though i suck, um a boy that plays guitar for me and sings to me... a boy that is compromising but can put me in my place when i get out of line ... a boy that will tell me when to shut up ... a boy that wants to take ME out ... um a boy that makes me a picnic ... a boy that i can make a picnic for .. a boy that wants to go to the zoo um and a museum ... a boy that wants to show me to all of his friends ... um a boy that wants to share music with me ... just a boy .. a nice one ...

I think Ill go now ... I have way to many wants , and the more i list its less likey ill actually be able to find him ... um if you have nothing else to do and would like to talk then give me a call or um message me or something ...