Everyday stream (Soubi)
I am shutting my eyes,I am trying not to think.Swiftly,in a moment of carelessess in front of my eyes my life is swept with unbearable detail and intensity that I feel my heart pulls and aches forward the rib bones like it wants to break free.And it scares me,momentarily,that thought of sudden,unexpected death amid mindless everyday,spent in trying to pass it more sufferably.I am too tired and overwhelmed to care,to ponder about pins in my heart and invinsible walls I am hitting constantly.It's hard to wander around this room,it's hard to go outside.With pillow tightly pressed to my chest it's best to sleep.I am so tired,anyway,everytime I sleep would do me fine.But there's that whirpool swirling in my head contained in steele bowl,it can't break free and escape.
And I am feeling if there were ten people to hit me defenseless I would endure with straight face,I wouldn't succumb.That's what I was supposed to become.
Want to crumble but to afraid of falling,no one can assist me.'Ritsuka,if you could hold me..'In that gentle fantasy ,there's origin of my river and it's meeting.
And I am feeling if there were ten people to hit me defenseless I would endure with straight face,I wouldn't succumb.That's what I was supposed to become.
Want to crumble but to afraid of falling,no one can assist me.'Ritsuka,if you could hold me..'In that gentle fantasy ,there's origin of my river and it's meeting.