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[luckytj24]

went gambling for my first time last night at Grand Casino, in hinckely. bob's brother zac is home from iraq with a shit load of money and gave me and bob $40 and we won $110. pretty sweet first-timers luck!!!! we ate snow crab and got sticky. it was soo much fun. then , getting home at 11:30pm we went to play pool, so zac could use his newly

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[luckytj24]

i've made the decision i want to move out, but i don't know how to even bring it up to him, because i gave him until friday.... i notice i keep needing this constant change for things. he did say if it came down to it, he would move back to his mom's trailer in gary....(oh so far away). and yes i know i need the help, but the conditions that come with it are too harsh. like i know i can stay at my mom's friends house, but bob would never be allowed over. i don't want to be "protected from him" that's not what i need. i just need the strength to make it clear to him what needs to change.
but think about it honestly, your parents would never let it fly me staying there....
i don't want to go home not only because i think people will think i've failed but, because all my life i hated living with my parents and the shit they dig up to fight about. when i don't live with them, i can walk away, set my own rules.
the only thing i know for sure there's a place opening up in june on 21st ave, but i DO not and cannot live with my parents for even that long. my schedule's too busy to live there too. i don't know, these aren't more excuses, because i do want to live on my own, but it's the telling why part and THEN the fact that once i tell him, i have to spend that time over my birthday moving.......