ohhhh, the sheer AUDACITY makes me want to throw up....

[luckysunday]

Un-fucking believable. Why would he do that?? Payback is a bitch, but considering I never did a thing wrong, I am hurt beyond words. He knows I read it-- he knows it. He quoted one of OUR songs about some other girl: offense number one. He talked about aly: ohhhh man, offense number two. He is all excited about dating around: auugggghh, offense

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[fighting4words]

BAHAHA, noooooo alright let me set things straight....

Number one- i think that is an amazing quote and its so useful because i listened to it wayyyyy before i knew you..its inspiration to me. this other girl and i have nothing going on and she was on a date with another guy that night. and YOU KNOW i think Aly is hot.just like you told me that guy Chad is hot. it bugged the shit out of me, but i took it. Im not going to hide it from you..it is MY journal for venting you didnt have to read it...but i know how you feel cause i dont like reading your journal but i do it anyway...

Number Two-im not excited as to "dating around" because i havent and i really dont want to. after us...it just wouldnt feel right.

Number Three-I called you because I thought it was a nice way to say I was sorry for being a jerk. I personally stopped what I was doing with my friends, to call you on the phone and tell you i love you afterwards.

You must realize I dont like to hurt you, it happens though. Im pretty sure were not getting back together, and you know what you said that changed my mind about getting back together. If it werent for you saying that about "him" (i'll be nice and not reveal who your still in love with) we'd be back together right now...but no you even went to the point of telling me you thought about him when we went out and everything. its crap.

so dont give me this "hurt" guilt trip, because im jsut as hurt as you...and even though i have a good way of hiding it, i do hurt. i do feel. but ive trained myself to show no emotion...i HATE to wear my heart on my sleeve in situations like this...and you know that too. you know im too much of a hardass to let people know how senstive i am with you.

im sorry.

but dont put this all on me.

brandon

it is on you.

[luckysunday]

Brandon, I cannot even believe you. I told you the exact situation with me and "him"...we're not even friends, or even acquaintances at this point. We made a truce because exes are the WORST people to alienate and make hate you. I wanted to have people stop hating me for immaturity I displayed a YEAR ago during that breakup. I would've not felt so desperate for acceptance if I had not felt so alone that night when we fought---I ran after you Brandon, who else would do that? Literally. I say what I mean and mean what I say, and I will stick to that always. If that's not validation for you, I don't know what is.

Re: it is on you.

[luckysunday]

by the way, just for the record...I said what I did about my FRIEND chad to show you how it felt when you go on and on about my other former friend aly. it is totally different...I would never act on it because he is my friend and I know we have nothing else in common. However, with aly, you are merely attracted to her. You don't know her, and you damn well would act on it if she even gave you the chance. Do not chastise me unless you can back it up with a legitimate comparison. there.