SO what about your life?
Do you ever like every now and then you reach a point in your life where every single thing you do just feels soo blah? Ugh... i cant tell what is worse going to school all summer and continue the never ending stress, or take the summer off and relax a little but be a semester behind in school? which is the less stressful path? I cant tell. But i can tell however that i am exhausted from this semester. im tired of worriying about grades.
My body feels terrible. Infact i think it is revolting against me and all the terrible things i do it. I want to take better care of myself but i cant find the time or the motivation.
I think moving out would help. A fresh start. But how does one afford that? and School? and a car payment? and insurance? and gas? and food? and whateverelse?
Why is it that sunshine makes you feel so good? Even when its fucking cold out... Is it because we Michiganders hardley see it for 9 months a year? me thinks me needs to get the hell outta this town...
Im not feeling like my good old self... i think alot of it has to do with my appearance. I simply do not like the way i look. I dont want to go out becuase i dont want people to see me. I hate that. more than anything. which is another reason i need outta this town. for a long time.
i think i am going to spend some time in florida... maybe...
My heart feels upside down, and at the same time tired. Im not feeling the "need" i guess you could say. And not in a sexual way, i mean in a fulfilling way. i feel full. HAHA in many ways fatty!
SaMe OlD sHiT day in and day out. i want new and fresh. and more time for myself without worrying about school and money.
Ive spent a lot of time crafting and painting these last few days. I bought myself some oils paints. i love them. iwant to spend all my time with them, but i cant. I feel like painting is so theraputic. If i could just spend a whole day painting with out anything else to bother me, i would be so refreshed. whatever
this life is... in need of change...................
My body feels terrible. Infact i think it is revolting against me and all the terrible things i do it. I want to take better care of myself but i cant find the time or the motivation.
I think moving out would help. A fresh start. But how does one afford that? and School? and a car payment? and insurance? and gas? and food? and whateverelse?
Why is it that sunshine makes you feel so good? Even when its fucking cold out... Is it because we Michiganders hardley see it for 9 months a year? me thinks me needs to get the hell outta this town...
Im not feeling like my good old self... i think alot of it has to do with my appearance. I simply do not like the way i look. I dont want to go out becuase i dont want people to see me. I hate that. more than anything. which is another reason i need outta this town. for a long time.
i think i am going to spend some time in florida... maybe...
My heart feels upside down, and at the same time tired. Im not feeling the "need" i guess you could say. And not in a sexual way, i mean in a fulfilling way. i feel full. HAHA in many ways fatty!
SaMe OlD sHiT day in and day out. i want new and fresh. and more time for myself without worrying about school and money.
Ive spent a lot of time crafting and painting these last few days. I bought myself some oils paints. i love them. iwant to spend all my time with them, but i cant. I feel like painting is so theraputic. If i could just spend a whole day painting with out anything else to bother me, i would be so refreshed. whatever
this life is... in need of change...................