WOW i can't believe that i'm writing in this thing...its been like forever
okay i know most of you are probablly surprised to see me update and so am i but i'm not tired like at all because i slept a lot today because i was sick. well anyways there is a reason why i'm updating.
Saturday I went to Tolo only so i can announce the winners and then i left cuz well i had no date and so V came with me. i spent the night at V's since we haven't hung out in a while and i miss spending my weekends hanging out with her. since Tolo is over the last big dance is prom, which is April 23, and we were thinking of who we would like to go with and i couldn't come up with anyone. it's like why can't i find that person who gets me inside and out and someone who is gonna make my life so much better and make me feel like the most special person in the world. it's like why can't i find anyone who likes me back. i hate being the friend rather than the girlfriend...i almost feel like i can't be liked by boys, they only want to be friends when i'm looking for something more than that. whenever i start getting close to a guy it always ends the same way we end up just being friends or he'll like someone else. Valentines day is tomorrow and i really really don't want to go to school tomorrow because everyone around me is gonna be getting all these gifts and here i'll be with nothing. some people may say that i'm picky but i'm not i just know what i want and everytime i find that he never likes me back. i know i'm probablly just repeating myself and i'll be surprised if people are still reading this. i just really need to say this out loud. i don't get it. it's not like i'm one of those girls who need everything and expect everything. i'm really just a simple girl who wants someone to love me back. when i was over at V's i brought over the movie THE NOTEBOOK (which is my new favorite movie of all time!!) and while i was watching it i was thinking why can't i have someone like that. someone who loves me so much that they would do anything to keep me. like noah wrote to Ali 365 letters one every day for a year when her and her family moved. even after years pasted he never stopped loving her and when they finally reunited after like 7 years he did everything he could to get her back even tho she was engaged to get married. i know that was a movie and that doesn't always happen in every relationship i still want something like that. even just someone who wants to hang out having fun or even just being able to be together would be great. well i've written a lot on a subjsct that just kinda poped out when i was writing this entry...i can't believe i wrote this much on it too. well sorry to bore everyone, even tho i'm sure no one made it this far. but if you did kudos to you.
<3ali
Saturday I went to Tolo only so i can announce the winners and then i left cuz well i had no date and so V came with me. i spent the night at V's since we haven't hung out in a while and i miss spending my weekends hanging out with her. since Tolo is over the last big dance is prom, which is April 23, and we were thinking of who we would like to go with and i couldn't come up with anyone. it's like why can't i find that person who gets me inside and out and someone who is gonna make my life so much better and make me feel like the most special person in the world. it's like why can't i find anyone who likes me back. i hate being the friend rather than the girlfriend...i almost feel like i can't be liked by boys, they only want to be friends when i'm looking for something more than that. whenever i start getting close to a guy it always ends the same way we end up just being friends or he'll like someone else. Valentines day is tomorrow and i really really don't want to go to school tomorrow because everyone around me is gonna be getting all these gifts and here i'll be with nothing. some people may say that i'm picky but i'm not i just know what i want and everytime i find that he never likes me back. i know i'm probablly just repeating myself and i'll be surprised if people are still reading this. i just really need to say this out loud. i don't get it. it's not like i'm one of those girls who need everything and expect everything. i'm really just a simple girl who wants someone to love me back. when i was over at V's i brought over the movie THE NOTEBOOK (which is my new favorite movie of all time!!) and while i was watching it i was thinking why can't i have someone like that. someone who loves me so much that they would do anything to keep me. like noah wrote to Ali 365 letters one every day for a year when her and her family moved. even after years pasted he never stopped loving her and when they finally reunited after like 7 years he did everything he could to get her back even tho she was engaged to get married. i know that was a movie and that doesn't always happen in every relationship i still want something like that. even just someone who wants to hang out having fun or even just being able to be together would be great. well i've written a lot on a subjsct that just kinda poped out when i was writing this entry...i can't believe i wrote this much on it too. well sorry to bore everyone, even tho i'm sure no one made it this far. but if you did kudos to you.
<3ali