felt like updating
It's October again. one year from the strange events that happened last year. looking back, it's been a pretty good year, i wouldn't have thought that a year ago, but time does change your perspectives on things.
last year, it felt like my life was over. then something happened (i still don't know what it was) and I was okay with everything, like i knew how everything was going to turn out. after that came the part where i didn't know if i had made all the right moves. now, everything makes sense. i know i've said this before, but now i know why i did what i did when i did it.
i also understand myself more. i know that i'm not another sheep in a mindless herd and i like that. i do things my way and live my own life. i'm stubborn, spiteful, quirky, controlling and competitive. some of those traits i'm not proud of, but they make me, me. they all played a part in the "disater" that took place last year, but they helped me through it and helped bring about one of the most fantastic things that has ever happened to me.
i guess it really is true that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, and i don't mind being like my dad, it's my mom's total loopiness that worries me. (she picked up a pine needle from the front yard one day and asked me what kind of tree they came from, when it was a pine needle and the only trees we have in the front a are pine trees! we live in the fucking pinelands!)
yesterday I went to new hope, pa. it was cool. it was just me and shawn. it was the first time we went anywhere other than the mall by ourselves. we had a great time. we even wore matching outfits (white dress shirts with blue and black circle designs and black pinstripe pants.) we were that couple everyone wants to beat with a shovel. it was wonderful.
then he told me he wants to take me to quebec for our anniversary. because we don't really know when we became a couple, we're just kind of picking a day that makes sense.
last year, it felt like my life was over. then something happened (i still don't know what it was) and I was okay with everything, like i knew how everything was going to turn out. after that came the part where i didn't know if i had made all the right moves. now, everything makes sense. i know i've said this before, but now i know why i did what i did when i did it.
i also understand myself more. i know that i'm not another sheep in a mindless herd and i like that. i do things my way and live my own life. i'm stubborn, spiteful, quirky, controlling and competitive. some of those traits i'm not proud of, but they make me, me. they all played a part in the "disater" that took place last year, but they helped me through it and helped bring about one of the most fantastic things that has ever happened to me.
i guess it really is true that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, and i don't mind being like my dad, it's my mom's total loopiness that worries me. (she picked up a pine needle from the front yard one day and asked me what kind of tree they came from, when it was a pine needle and the only trees we have in the front a are pine trees! we live in the fucking pinelands!)
yesterday I went to new hope, pa. it was cool. it was just me and shawn. it was the first time we went anywhere other than the mall by ourselves. we had a great time. we even wore matching outfits (white dress shirts with blue and black circle designs and black pinstripe pants.) we were that couple everyone wants to beat with a shovel. it was wonderful.
then he told me he wants to take me to quebec for our anniversary. because we don't really know when we became a couple, we're just kind of picking a day that makes sense.