No idea?
Well i ahve been in a really good mood lately, but there is still that pang of depression that comes and goes. Yesterday I was taking a shower and i started to cry. When I was getting dressed I asked Pete why I still hurt, and the amazing thing is he knew what I was talking about.
My aunt died Christmas eve and I still have these images of her laying there while her daughter and her husband tried to give her CPR, but she was already gone. While they where doing CPR this greenish liquid stuff was coming out of her nose, so I went up to her dead body and touched her hand but I didn't say anything not even a good bye i just stood there and stared until my mum touched my arm. I kind of snapped out of this odd trance and looked at my mum and told her that my aunt loved her and will miss her. My mum started to cry so hard. I really didn't know what actually happened after that. Everything was so fast after that. I told my mum i was sorry and all she can do now when I say sorry is just hug me and tell me that she loves me.
I still think of that momment of my aunts body and that stuff coming out. I even have dreams about it and I wake up crying.
Well back to what Pete said. I asked "Why do I still Hurt?"
hHe sat on the bed and cuddled me and said "It's a hard thing to get over by losing someone but in time you will heal and you won't hurt anymore. You are a humanbeing and you have such strong emotions than others it will take longer." He huigged me and kissed and got ready for our date with eachother.
I feel better but The feeling won't go away.
The whole thing is I never cried. I didn't cry at the Rosery, and I didn't cry when we buried her. I cried when i finally got home from Texas. I cried in Pete's arms until I fell asleep. I cry now and then and Pete is there to confort me.
I'm happy I have him in my life.
I hope we can get married this year.
My aunt died Christmas eve and I still have these images of her laying there while her daughter and her husband tried to give her CPR, but she was already gone. While they where doing CPR this greenish liquid stuff was coming out of her nose, so I went up to her dead body and touched her hand but I didn't say anything not even a good bye i just stood there and stared until my mum touched my arm. I kind of snapped out of this odd trance and looked at my mum and told her that my aunt loved her and will miss her. My mum started to cry so hard. I really didn't know what actually happened after that. Everything was so fast after that. I told my mum i was sorry and all she can do now when I say sorry is just hug me and tell me that she loves me.
I still think of that momment of my aunts body and that stuff coming out. I even have dreams about it and I wake up crying.
Well back to what Pete said. I asked "Why do I still Hurt?"
hHe sat on the bed and cuddled me and said "It's a hard thing to get over by losing someone but in time you will heal and you won't hurt anymore. You are a humanbeing and you have such strong emotions than others it will take longer." He huigged me and kissed and got ready for our date with eachother.
I feel better but The feeling won't go away.
The whole thing is I never cried. I didn't cry at the Rosery, and I didn't cry when we buried her. I cried when i finally got home from Texas. I cried in Pete's arms until I fell asleep. I cry now and then and Pete is there to confort me.
I'm happy I have him in my life.
I hope we can get married this year.