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so things are going alright.
i wish i was going to california for christmas. this is the first year in forever that i'm not going.
i havent been doing a lot lately.
on saturday i was going to straighten my hair for work, and i picked it up, and i guess i left it on the day before cause it burnt the shit out of my finger. i mean like, way bad. my skin totally liquified. its the most disgusting thing i've ever seen, and has not stopped hurting.
on top of that i am getting sick. i cannot swallow. it's making me angry.
all of that, plus working my shitty retail job during the holidays...jesus i want to kill myself.
i havent seen anyone in a while. i miss angie and crystal and brad, and stacy. i've been too lazy to call anyone. sorry guys.
things with me and doug are blah. i decided that i wanted to take a few steps backwards with him.
i know i'm still hung up on mario. i can't even bring myself to call him because it hurts so bad. i would drop everything if he said he wanted me to move there. i know things were really shitty, but this past 7 months have taught me so much. i know we had our bad times. but i know how much i love him, it seems like im never going to have that ever again. i really screwed things up.
i wish i was going to california for christmas. this is the first year in forever that i'm not going.
i havent been doing a lot lately.
on saturday i was going to straighten my hair for work, and i picked it up, and i guess i left it on the day before cause it burnt the shit out of my finger. i mean like, way bad. my skin totally liquified. its the most disgusting thing i've ever seen, and has not stopped hurting.
on top of that i am getting sick. i cannot swallow. it's making me angry.
all of that, plus working my shitty retail job during the holidays...jesus i want to kill myself.
i havent seen anyone in a while. i miss angie and crystal and brad, and stacy. i've been too lazy to call anyone. sorry guys.
things with me and doug are blah. i decided that i wanted to take a few steps backwards with him.
i know i'm still hung up on mario. i can't even bring myself to call him because it hurts so bad. i would drop everything if he said he wanted me to move there. i know things were really shitty, but this past 7 months have taught me so much. i know we had our bad times. but i know how much i love him, it seems like im never going to have that ever again. i really screwed things up.