I've dug my own grave.
I think I finally realized that I am a horrible friend.
I cannot keep friendships because I am selfish.
I go through these periods where I shut everyone out. I don't return phonecalls. I don't do anything.
I don't know why I do this. It's like I don't want to talk to anyone, and I just want to sulk and be depressed and live a routine life where I work, eat and sleep. I hardly talk to my own boyfriend anymore, and i live with him.
I've realized how many bridges I've burned, and how many friendships I've lost, or are in the gutter. And to these people, although most of them will not read this..i am sorry.
To Nicole and Cathy. I need to come out there and get to know you guys again.
To Jen. You were my bestfriend, and I completely shut you out, and I've avoided the fact that we are not friends anymore. For that I am sorry. I wish we still talked because i miss you.
To Kristina in Ohio. I want to take pictures of your pregnant belly. I miss you and gabe so much.
To megan. You are one of the only people that knows my mood swings, and my weird depression spells. Therefor you can probably get me out of it. I'm sorry for not calling you back. We need to hang out asap.
To Lauren. I am so upset that I did not get to see you before you moved to Seattle. I can't believe you are gone. I'm sending you a package in the mail in the next couple days. I miss you.
To everyone else. again, I am sorry.
I cannot keep friendships because I am selfish.
I go through these periods where I shut everyone out. I don't return phonecalls. I don't do anything.
I don't know why I do this. It's like I don't want to talk to anyone, and I just want to sulk and be depressed and live a routine life where I work, eat and sleep. I hardly talk to my own boyfriend anymore, and i live with him.
I've realized how many bridges I've burned, and how many friendships I've lost, or are in the gutter. And to these people, although most of them will not read this..i am sorry.
To Nicole and Cathy. I need to come out there and get to know you guys again.
To Jen. You were my bestfriend, and I completely shut you out, and I've avoided the fact that we are not friends anymore. For that I am sorry. I wish we still talked because i miss you.
To Kristina in Ohio. I want to take pictures of your pregnant belly. I miss you and gabe so much.
To megan. You are one of the only people that knows my mood swings, and my weird depression spells. Therefor you can probably get me out of it. I'm sorry for not calling you back. We need to hang out asap.
To Lauren. I am so upset that I did not get to see you before you moved to Seattle. I can't believe you are gone. I'm sending you a package in the mail in the next couple days. I miss you.
To everyone else. again, I am sorry.