Yes, I obviously know that I have a lot going for me. I don't need you to tell me that.
AND yes YOU did let Adrian get in between us. You didn't give 2 shits that's you 'weren't allowed' to see me, and you didn't do anything or stand up for me.
It's shitty cause I know I was always a good friend to you. And you don't even know how to be a good friend back. Just because I have my own opinions about things... doesn't mean shit. I don't have to like Adrian or your fucked up relationship to be friends with you. I'm not gonna say stuff I don't think. I tell it how it is.
And about what I do with my personal time, that's none of your concern. Not that it even matter, but I haven't gotten high in prob. about a year. And hell yeah I'm donna get drunk when I can. I'm A FUCKING TEENAGER still. Forget what it's like huh? You're just jealous that you can't have it back.
Oh and just in case you didn't read Jo's comment in my journal I'll post it here for. This is a true friend:
ok first off i'd like to comment on the fact that u cant keep ur fucking mouth shut. Why the hell would u tell mom about my weekend? and that dana spent the night. Thats just bull shit. You just lost my trust. You know i was there for u last year when u got in a fight with dad and guess who else was there... JESSICA! but what, oh since ur so god-damn inlove u can just ignore and forget about everything that we did for u. Jessica is the best friend i have ever had. She has always been there for me, and even tho she is sometimes HONEST, god forbid, and tells u how it is, doesnt mean shes not a "real" friend. b/c guess what thats what "real" friends do. they tell u the truth even if it hurts. Everyone is a hypocrit. YOU ARE. Do u notice that whenever u call me or talk to me its b/c u WANT something. I'm no good unless u need ciggs. and u know what the stupid thing is... i got them for u. U called me every fucking day but when u got ur ciggs, nope not one call or IM. but go ahead. u can live in ur little fantasy land with adrian. Some asshole that threatens ur fucking friends life. Shes suppose to be ur best friend and u dont give two shits about what adrain says to her. CHICKS BEFORE DICKS. u go tell adrain that i said that too. The question isnt towards Jessica why she isnt a good or real friend. its the other way around. She SHOULD be asking you that. but shes not b/c she doesnt care anymore. thats what happens when u have some non-english- speaking controling prick like adrain as a boyfriend oh no i'm sorry "fiance" How do u even know what else is out there? Yah u love him now but in 10 years are u going too. and u have no idea what else is out there. u "settled down" at age 16! Thats smart. But whatever. If ur happy with just him and no friends. He can be ur family now, and ur best friend, but when it doesnt work out, dont come crawling back here. Don't even try. Is adrain really worth losing ur friends, all of them, ur sister, and ur fucking life. When was the last time u went out? and had fun. u sit on ur ass everyday and work at mcdonalds then suck adrain's little penis when he gets home. what a life. WELL GET USED TO IT B/C THATS ALL UR FUCKING GOING TO HAVE.
welli dont want to do thouse things that you do. i dont want to get drunk or high orm whatever what i am doing makes me happy so i can oging to contiue to do it. i am sorry froom the bottom of my heart because i have not been a good friend but all i want is to be on good terms i dont want to fight iwht you because i know that we could fight about everything forever. all i want is for you to say that you are happy for me and mean it. and all i want is to be good with eachoter not hate eacother and not everythime we see eachother to fake it. thats all i want i dont want you to like adrian because i know that will never happen i just want you to be happy for me because i am happy. im sorry and i will always love you and i really will always remeber and apriate everything that you did for me that night.
So what? You don't even care if you and me are friends or anything? You just want me to be like "oh vanessa yay I'm so happy for you cause you're in love yipee blahlbhalblahblab."
Well I am happy that your happy. But I am not happy that you don't give two shits about anything other than Adrian anymore.
yes i do jessica. i care about alot. i attmit that i use to not care about anything except being with him but im changing. i use to think tha ti could only have one or the other. but i know that i can have both. i am going back to school. and i am making new friends. i just want you to know that yea i do care. even if it doest seem like i care but i do i always did i was trying to hide it. but im sorry if you thought that i didnt care about you but i did and i still do.
How can you have both if Adrian doesn't let you? If you care as much as you claim to do, maybe you should show it now that you're changing. Cause it hurt A LOT when you acted and act like you don't. I should mean something to you.
AND yes YOU did let Adrian get in between us. You didn't give 2 shits that's you 'weren't allowed' to see me, and you didn't do anything or stand up for me.
It's shitty cause I know I was always a good friend to you. And you don't even know how to be a good friend back. Just because I have my own opinions about things... doesn't mean shit. I don't have to like Adrian or your fucked up relationship to be friends with you. I'm not gonna say stuff I don't think. I tell it how it is.
And about what I do with my personal time, that's none of your concern. Not that it even matter, but I haven't gotten high in prob. about a year. And hell yeah I'm donna get drunk when I can. I'm A FUCKING TEENAGER still. Forget what it's like huh? You're just jealous that you can't have it back.
Oh and just in case you didn't read Jo's comment in my journal I'll post it here for. This is a true friend:
ok first off i'd like to comment on the fact that u cant keep ur fucking mouth shut. Why the hell would u tell mom about my weekend? and that dana spent the night. Thats just bull shit. You just lost my trust. You know i was there for u last year when u got in a fight with dad and guess who else was there... JESSICA! but what, oh since ur so god-damn inlove u can just ignore and forget about everything that we did for u. Jessica is the best friend i have ever had. She has always been there for me, and even tho she is sometimes HONEST, god forbid, and tells u how it is, doesnt mean shes not a "real" friend. b/c guess what thats what "real" friends do. they tell u the truth even if it hurts.
Everyone is a hypocrit. YOU ARE.
Do u notice that whenever u call me or talk to me its b/c u WANT something. I'm no good unless u need ciggs. and u know what the stupid thing is... i got them for u. U called me every fucking day but when u got ur ciggs, nope not one call or IM. but go ahead. u can live in ur little fantasy land with adrian. Some asshole that threatens ur fucking friends life. Shes suppose to be ur best friend and u dont give two shits about what adrain says to her. CHICKS BEFORE DICKS. u go tell adrain that i said that too. The question isnt towards Jessica why she isnt a good or real friend. its the other way around. She SHOULD be asking you that. but shes not b/c she doesnt care anymore. thats what happens when u have some non-english- speaking controling prick like adrain as a boyfriend oh no i'm sorry "fiance" How do u even know what else is out there? Yah u love him now but in 10 years are u going too. and u have no idea what else is out there. u "settled down" at age 16! Thats smart. But whatever. If ur happy with just him and no friends. He can be ur family now, and ur best friend, but when it doesnt work out, dont come crawling back here. Don't even try. Is adrain really worth losing ur friends, all of them, ur sister, and ur fucking life. When was the last time u went out? and had fun. u sit on ur ass everyday and work at mcdonalds then suck adrain's little penis when he gets home. what a life. WELL GET USED TO IT B/C THATS ALL UR FUCKING GOING TO HAVE.
i love u, jessica
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i am sorry froom the bottom of my heart because i have not been a good friend but all i want is to be on good terms i dont want to fight iwht you
because i know that we could fight about everything forever.
all i want is for you to say that you are happy for me and mean it.
and all i want is to be good with eachoter
not hate eacother and not everythime we see eachother to fake it.
thats all i want
i dont want you to like adrian because i know that will never happen i just want you to be happy for me because i am happy.
im sorry and i will always love you
and i really will always remeber and apriate everything that you did for me that night.
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Well I am happy that your happy. But I am not happy that you don't give two shits about anything other than Adrian anymore.
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i care about alot. i attmit that i use to not care about anything except being with him but im changing. i use to think tha ti could only have one or the other. but i know that i can have both. i am going back to school. and i am making new friends. i just want you to know that yea i do care. even if it doest seem like i care but i do i always did i was trying to hide it. but im sorry if you thought that i didnt care about you but i did and i still do.
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