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So yeah, shit reeks lately. What exactly is it that sucks so much? I don't even really know. Teri's post says I'm depressed because of Chris not being here, or me being there. And yes, that's part of it, I will always be sad until I can be with him again, but that's really not it. When Jeff and Teri are together, and Jorge and Demetri, I'm past the point that I was when we first moved in together where all it did was make me wanna cry. I love Chris to death. But there are other things in my life. I do have emotions that don't have to concern him. So in a way I wish that people would stop assuming that my depression comes from not being with Chris. I don't know why I am this way lately, but it's not what people are thinking.
My friendships seem to have turned to shit and I don't know what to do about it. I do take some of the blame but, overall, I don't know what happened or what to freakin' do. I need to spend some one on one time with them. Not always as a group or whatnot. I just don't know. I guess we'll see. I need to have a talk I guess.
Things with Jorge I think are quite good. Not where we used to be, probably never will, but they're good. Unless I'm just blind and not seeing something. Which is possible, that's part of what started this shit in the first place.
My mood's starting to go downhill now, so I'm gonna go.
My friendships seem to have turned to shit and I don't know what to do about it. I do take some of the blame but, overall, I don't know what happened or what to freakin' do. I need to spend some one on one time with them. Not always as a group or whatnot. I just don't know. I guess we'll see. I need to have a talk I guess.
Things with Jorge I think are quite good. Not where we used to be, probably never will, but they're good. Unless I'm just blind and not seeing something. Which is possible, that's part of what started this shit in the first place.
My mood's starting to go downhill now, so I'm gonna go.