Oscar, you're gay. Boom, roasted.
School is going well. I really enjoy it. It's pretty easy for the most part. I want to be a Dental Hygienist and that's what I plan on doing but I have a passion for wedding planning. At least I think I do. I'm not sure if it's just something that all girls enjoy and it's just a phase or what.
I've started talking to my dad again. I want to have a relationship with him. I've always wanted that. From talking to him it seems like we have very similar personalities...go figure. My mom doesn't know that I'm talking to him. I think it's better to keep my relationships with them separate. I'm actually planning to go visit him during my spring break. It's really hard to keep things like this from my mom. I tell her everything. I was always told that my dad was a shitty husband and father. I believed that for a long time. I always thought that my mom was innocent and could do no wrong. Nope, I found out otherwise. My parents divorced when I was 2. Ever since then my dad hasn't been apart of my life. I just found out that it wasn't because he didn't want to be but because my mom didn't want him to be. I cried to my mom since I was a young child about how much I wanted a dad and about how I missed him. She comforted me for years telling me things like "it's his loss," I had no idea that she was keeping him away. It's her fault that I didn't have a father growing up. She acted like she had no idea why he didn't come around or call or write. This has gone on for about 18 years. Crazy, huh? I don't know what to think of my mom anymore but this is something that I have to keep to myself. I'm worried that if I confront her about it that she will get angry and cut me off. I love her but I don't know how she could do something like that. It seems to be for selfish reasons that I'm probably not going to understand.
I miss phil. I'm really proud of him. I can't wait to see him.
I'm tired. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay!
I've started talking to my dad again. I want to have a relationship with him. I've always wanted that. From talking to him it seems like we have very similar personalities...go figure. My mom doesn't know that I'm talking to him. I think it's better to keep my relationships with them separate. I'm actually planning to go visit him during my spring break. It's really hard to keep things like this from my mom. I tell her everything. I was always told that my dad was a shitty husband and father. I believed that for a long time. I always thought that my mom was innocent and could do no wrong. Nope, I found out otherwise. My parents divorced when I was 2. Ever since then my dad hasn't been apart of my life. I just found out that it wasn't because he didn't want to be but because my mom didn't want him to be. I cried to my mom since I was a young child about how much I wanted a dad and about how I missed him. She comforted me for years telling me things like "it's his loss," I had no idea that she was keeping him away. It's her fault that I didn't have a father growing up. She acted like she had no idea why he didn't come around or call or write. This has gone on for about 18 years. Crazy, huh? I don't know what to think of my mom anymore but this is something that I have to keep to myself. I'm worried that if I confront her about it that she will get angry and cut me off. I love her but I don't know how she could do something like that. It seems to be for selfish reasons that I'm probably not going to understand.
I miss phil. I'm really proud of him. I can't wait to see him.
I'm tired. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay!