+I wish life had a pause button+
Everyhitng is just so crazy.
My emotions are so out of whack,. and i don't know what to do.
I... uggh,.
I just don't know what I want.
I thought I did but then something else came back into the whole situation and now my whole thought process has been de-railed.
I get so upset just thinking baout it but,.
Then I think agian and wonder why I'm making this into such a big thing?.
other people have far worse problems than I do and I should be focusing on helping them first right?. because they may have more important ones. but I just feel so drained because I think that I am happy but then something happens I get thrown completely off track of where I wanted to be and everything gets so confusing and I wish there was a way for me to get back on track because i thought I had a destination in mind but now I realize that, that destination is too far for me to go all the time and it just makes it too difficult. so I think about another destination that is closer but It is unreachable and I end up in a detour half way in the middle and confused as hell.
wow guys sorry for the whole like, what? train talk? I guess. just use it as an analogy for what I'm talking about I guess. only a couple people will understand and I'm sorry but I just can't explain it to those you who don't already know. unless you really really want me to.. but it just gets more confusing the more i think about it.
I amd just going to put everything on hold. that sounds like the best solution for now. I guess. or I hope so.
anyways though. i seem to be helping some people with their problems lately so if anybpdy feel they can trust me enough to talk to me about a problem they are having right now I would be more than happy to do so. don't be afraid to ask me about anything okay?
Maybe I should just become a therapist. lol.
My emotions are so out of whack,. and i don't know what to do.
I... uggh,.
I just don't know what I want.
I thought I did but then something else came back into the whole situation and now my whole thought process has been de-railed.
I get so upset just thinking baout it but,.
Then I think agian and wonder why I'm making this into such a big thing?.
other people have far worse problems than I do and I should be focusing on helping them first right?. because they may have more important ones. but I just feel so drained because I think that I am happy but then something happens I get thrown completely off track of where I wanted to be and everything gets so confusing and I wish there was a way for me to get back on track because i thought I had a destination in mind but now I realize that, that destination is too far for me to go all the time and it just makes it too difficult. so I think about another destination that is closer but It is unreachable and I end up in a detour half way in the middle and confused as hell.
wow guys sorry for the whole like, what? train talk? I guess. just use it as an analogy for what I'm talking about I guess. only a couple people will understand and I'm sorry but I just can't explain it to those you who don't already know. unless you really really want me to.. but it just gets more confusing the more i think about it.
I amd just going to put everything on hold. that sounds like the best solution for now. I guess. or I hope so.
anyways though. i seem to be helping some people with their problems lately so if anybpdy feel they can trust me enough to talk to me about a problem they are having right now I would be more than happy to do so. don't be afraid to ask me about anything okay?
Maybe I should just become a therapist. lol.