Sorry for the Downtime
Needed to do some upkeeping and needed some time to myself.
Today pretty much made me feel like an asshat. Correction, this week has made me feel pretty much like an asshat. There are some good times, don't get me wrong, but the average has definitely been on a bad level. Today just seemed to add to it.
I don't know - a lot of things are bugging me. I can't let them bug me, but they innately do. Apathy... Apathy... Relationships... I don't know. I really just don't know.
It bugs me terribly that people won't go and do things because they don't believe they'll have an impact. Or if they do, they don't get half as far as they should go. There's so much potential out there to move things in the right direction, to help solve these situations, and yet the more I look, the more I see people who just don't seem to give a damn. I can't claim that it's a specific minority group of people thinking this anymore, it's clearly a majority. And when a majority can whine about what's going on and then choose not take any action whatsoever... It's just plain wrong.
If I feel I need to be heard, I find a way to do it. I'll post on here if I think that other people should understand what's going on in my head. I'll send letters out to my representatives on issues (which reminds me to continue work on my project about nixing marriage as an institution altogether. It's some crazy left-wing nut job idea maybe, but I stick to it). There are so many excellent opportunities to make communities a better place, and fewer people who seem interested in doing something.
This is the most random thing on earth, but I would love to compile a list of organizations, and just have general statistics about them. A lot of the organizations that are listed by UW-Eau Claire are outdated, renamed, new, or gone, and I'd like to see what everyone is doing. Anywho.
But... This recognition is really frustrating me. And I know it's going to cause a lot of turmoil with my friends for the next while.
I guess what really scares me is at this moment, I don't care as much. I'm really starting to feel the need to ignore things... I'd much rather access this in non-damaging ways (Sorry Kirstyn once again), but I'm afraid it's going to do damage. And as much as I'm starting to get frustrated, I don't want to do damage, especially to the people who matter to me.
Which then begs, am I trying to redefine who matters to me? I can't. I really hope that I am not doing that. I don't know anymore, I just don't.
LuckyDan will be offline temporarily in order to troubleshoot. Thank you for your patience.
Today pretty much made me feel like an asshat. Correction, this week has made me feel pretty much like an asshat. There are some good times, don't get me wrong, but the average has definitely been on a bad level. Today just seemed to add to it.
I don't know - a lot of things are bugging me. I can't let them bug me, but they innately do. Apathy... Apathy... Relationships... I don't know. I really just don't know.
It bugs me terribly that people won't go and do things because they don't believe they'll have an impact. Or if they do, they don't get half as far as they should go. There's so much potential out there to move things in the right direction, to help solve these situations, and yet the more I look, the more I see people who just don't seem to give a damn. I can't claim that it's a specific minority group of people thinking this anymore, it's clearly a majority. And when a majority can whine about what's going on and then choose not take any action whatsoever... It's just plain wrong.
If I feel I need to be heard, I find a way to do it. I'll post on here if I think that other people should understand what's going on in my head. I'll send letters out to my representatives on issues (which reminds me to continue work on my project about nixing marriage as an institution altogether. It's some crazy left-wing nut job idea maybe, but I stick to it). There are so many excellent opportunities to make communities a better place, and fewer people who seem interested in doing something.
This is the most random thing on earth, but I would love to compile a list of organizations, and just have general statistics about them. A lot of the organizations that are listed by UW-Eau Claire are outdated, renamed, new, or gone, and I'd like to see what everyone is doing. Anywho.
But... This recognition is really frustrating me. And I know it's going to cause a lot of turmoil with my friends for the next while.
I guess what really scares me is at this moment, I don't care as much. I'm really starting to feel the need to ignore things... I'd much rather access this in non-damaging ways (Sorry Kirstyn once again), but I'm afraid it's going to do damage. And as much as I'm starting to get frustrated, I don't want to do damage, especially to the people who matter to me.
Which then begs, am I trying to redefine who matters to me? I can't. I really hope that I am not doing that. I don't know anymore, I just don't.
LuckyDan will be offline temporarily in order to troubleshoot. Thank you for your patience.