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Wow, this sucks a lot. It bothers me that I devoted so much time to something that obviously was something very different to him. I don't get it. Two weeks ago we were great, and now, it's pretty much the exact opposite. As much as I don't want to say this, I mean we were both drunk,and he couldn't be the least bit affectionate. I hope I wake up tomorow and am feeling a lot better, but I'm sure this isn't going to be the case. I hate that I can't even call it a break-up, because officially we never going out. We've been in limbo since like October, and now, not in limbo, just in a stage where Kristin is hurt. Yay. I feel like this situation is just a repeat, except now I'm more attached, thus making an already difficult situation that much worse. The idea that we won't be friends is def. the worse, I love those guys, and not hanging out with them would suck. It bothers me that this has gone on for almost 4 months, which is ridiculous. I mean honestly, I should have said something months ago. And the fact that I sent him a text message and an IM, with a repsonse to neither really pissed me off. I mean, honestly, I feel like I have a right to know watch changed. I understand that its uncomfortable for him, but it's worse for me. At least he knows what happened, I'm just stuck here sitting in the dark. I don't need it to be a reason that I find acceptable, or even coherent, but anything is better than nothing.