Celine
"I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with, because each person has their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. Thats why I'm very careful with getting involved because it hurts too much... because I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed with little things. Maybe I'm crazy, but when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me, to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalks or ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk. Little things I think its the same with people. I see in them little details so specific to each of them that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details. Like, I remember the way your beard has a bit of red in it, and how the sun was making it glow, that morning right before you left. I remembered that, and I missed it."