what does Daphne want???
yesterday was a day from hell!!! my report came in and i failed three classes!!! my mom flipped out. as of right now, my social life is dead. things are so hard around here. im so sick of trying to make everyone else happy and when i do something to make me happy, everyone else gets all pissed off. yseterday was so dramatic. it was like my mom hardly cared about my grades. she was just using it as an excuse to through everything in my face. she gets all pissed off cuz i go out with friends and some of them are guys. lately ive been going out with kevin and she doesnt like him for some reason or another. well now it turns out that my grades slack cuz "i'm a slut with my head in everyones lap" that im too busy "whoring around on the phone till midnight" thats a bunch of BULLSHIT!!! the only person im on the phone with is Vanessa. so what, is she gona say that im whoring around with vanessa, that im a lesbian now???? my mom turns out with so much bullshit, its not even funny!!! then i was talking to my aunt cuz i just couldnt hold it in anymore, and my aunt said is that what i have to do is look inside me and find out what Daphne wants. but thats hard. sometimes what daphne wants is to just end it. to just find the quickest way to end everything: the tears, the drama, the pain, the life!! i just dont have the strength in me to end it. you know, those people that committ suicide are pretty brave. or maybe its just that i want to grow up and be on my own sooo bad that i dont want to end it now. i dunno, i just dont have the strength to do it. I just want to fast forward life either until i graduate or at least until my mom moves out. at the rate she's going, it seems like she's never gonna leave. i just want her gone!!!! i dunno what to do with myself now. Now i have to find a job cuz my mom keeps pushing me. any one have any suggestions??? aye, well, i guess i've bored you all enough. bye.