Aaarrgh!!!
Today has been such a shitty day and its barely gonna be 10 o'clock!!!! i doubt they're gonna let me go out tonight. i really want to cuz i dont wanna be at my house. im sooo sick of the hipocracy that is going on there!!!! im even mad at my grandma and my aunt. i hate it that they always say, "talk to us since you feel that you cant talk to your mom. you can trust us." BULLSHIT!!!!! i confide in them and then they turn around and talk about it to my mom. They're always talking about me. And i know they are. i'll walk into the room where they are and they just shut up. HELLO!!!! im not stupid!!! i know what theyre talking about. if theyre talking about anything else, they keep talking like no big deal. but when its me theyre talking about they just shut up. the other day. my grandma was in the shower and i was in the bathroom brushing my teeth. she told me to go get my mom, so i did and then i went back to getting ready. when my mom walked in the first thing my grandma asked was that if i was in the bathroom. my mom said that i was and my granndma said that she would talk to my mom when i left the bathroom. HELLO!!!!!!!! how much more obvious does it have to be. Then they complain that i dont do anything and that i dont help. i help the most i can. Im busy with my own things too. Everyone is all involved with their own lifes, but i have to put my life aside to make theirs easier. thats bull. Im sooo sick of it. im gonna get home today and ill clean and ill do whatever the fuck they want, but after that they better let me out of the house!! its almost tempting to just leave, but i doubt that will keep my trouble free. oh well, ill write some more later.