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went to NMU to help with the comfort kits...boring as HELL!!!!! tom hopefully swimmin at black rocks if any of yall wanna come get at me...tom night steph dave vicky & i are going to see The Exorcism of Emily Rose...if anybody else wants to tag along we'll make it one big bloody friggen party!!!! it'll be a blast!!!! hmm...nothing else to say right now!!!! later dayz...oh yeah...almost forgot...saw Ruben earlier...we were drivin back to ishpy & by bk he passed us...i was like "how much you wanna bet he's goin to Taco Bell?" & guess what?!?! when we passed TB...there he was gettin out of his truck!!! there was a girl with dark hair with him & my mom was like "are you jealous?" & i was like "hmm...umm...let me think about this...umm...no" i feel nothing but nostalgia (word of the day) for him...even when we first got together i knew we wouldn't last...let's face it...i liked HAVING a boyfriend more than i actually liked my boyfriend!!!! we had some good times though...we never fought...well VERY rarely & the longest one lasted all of 5 minutes!!! he was a good boyfriend...it was just time for it to end...i was relieved once i broke it off too...everybody especially shaz & steph kept trying to get me to take him back...but there's no chance of that happening...i don't want to spend my time in a relationship that i know is basically a lie. i know i'd never be able to say i love you to him...but i know i always will love him...kinda like one of my cousins...casey read me something out of his profile about missing somebody...& one part said "i cry to think she's out there somewhere moving on with her life & i'm left here with our memories..." i asked casey how he knew it was me rubes was talking about & casey's like "c'mon...you were the best thing to ever happen to ruben...& who else could it be anyway?" but oh well...i don't regret being with him...whenever "memories of us" comes on i reminisc...that was our song...but life goes on!!! wow...this is A LOT longer than i meant it to be!! oh well!!! kisses!!