Hurt.................Depressed
Hey guys! I want to let each and every one of you know that i love you so much and i hold you all so close to my heart. Today two of the greatest people i have had the privledge of knowing were laid to rest today. It hurts me so bad that during Casey's funeral i literally stopped breathing and walking up to his casket to say that final good-bye i broke down and would have fallen into a million pieces but Parker was there and lets just say it hurt me sooo much to see him just laying there so peaceful and i just wanted so badly to shake him lightly and say Casey please wake up just please wake up. Casey's was the hardest thing that I probably will have to go through for a long while. His funeral as soon as i walked in i knew Casey had touched so many lives and he brought us together to celebrate our life and the one we had with his. Well Glenn's wasn't as bad as Casey's but it was just as hard if not harder to walk up to his casket and say good bye. I mean i walked up there and i thought i had cried as much as i could ever have but on the way to his casket i lost it completely. But the only thing different about this one is that i had people there for me like Erica, Renee, Teresa, and Leslie.............. but when i went to Casey's it seemed i had more after the funeral but in the beginning it was only Parker and Phillip and i'm just sooo glad they were there because it broke my heart. Today i can honestly swear on it had to be one of the Hardest days of my life. I mean who goes to two funerals in one day.......... It really hurts right now and i don't feel a thing as in feelings and physical wise too. OH Erica sorry i couldn't go back to Steven's i just didn't feel up to it. Well Right now all i can think about is my little Glenn........... or my radiant smile from Casey. I miss them so much and it still doesn't seem real to me that they are gone but i know they are it just hasn't fully sunken in yet but i just know that i'm thoroughly confused and mixed up in the head right now. So i'm just going to end this with I know time heals all wounds but it seems that my time is on stand still.~Kami