pooerns
seriously my stomach has hurt for a week now. i thought i was getting DKA yesterday but i did my sugars every 2 hours and took insulin accordingly.
meh. i pretty much havent moved all week. i didnt go work. i pretty much just slept. i weight 100lbs now which is weird. i was always so concerned about losing weight now im trying to figure out how to gain some. im pretty much eating anything i can keep down or not be totally grossed out by. my dad got me a smoothie yesterday and it was excellent!!! mmm!
some people say the rudest things to you when your sick. sometimes people think im faking but obviously they believe me more so now that my weight has come down so much. my mom said to me today...all our lives dont need to be on hold cuz youre sick. (i thought she was changing cuz since i was diagnosed with gastroparesis shes been actually nice.. until today)
other people are like mad at me for being sick... im not going to name any names but its like if i have the choice of being healthy and working and going to school and doing all the normal thing people my age do i think id choose that over laying in bed crying cuz my guts hurt so much and im so tired i cant do anything...
i hate this... i hate what ive become. someone said something and its been stuck in my head since then... youre a shadow of the person you used to be...
meh. i pretty much havent moved all week. i didnt go work. i pretty much just slept. i weight 100lbs now which is weird. i was always so concerned about losing weight now im trying to figure out how to gain some. im pretty much eating anything i can keep down or not be totally grossed out by. my dad got me a smoothie yesterday and it was excellent!!! mmm!
some people say the rudest things to you when your sick. sometimes people think im faking but obviously they believe me more so now that my weight has come down so much. my mom said to me today...all our lives dont need to be on hold cuz youre sick. (i thought she was changing cuz since i was diagnosed with gastroparesis shes been actually nice.. until today)
other people are like mad at me for being sick... im not going to name any names but its like if i have the choice of being healthy and working and going to school and doing all the normal thing people my age do i think id choose that over laying in bed crying cuz my guts hurt so much and im so tired i cant do anything...
i hate this... i hate what ive become. someone said something and its been stuck in my head since then... youre a shadow of the person you used to be...