okay.
oh how non-exciting today was. And I get to spend another day like today, tomorrow. Great fun. Actually ....NOT. I am so bored, I don't know what to do. I haven't really had any social contact today at all. Life is boring. Maybe I should call someone. But I guess not, because, well if they were bored too, they might call me. But if everyone thinks like I do, no one would call anyone, so maybe I should pick up the phone and call someone.......I'd rather not. I'd rather have others call me. I kinda feel like a complete loser calling all my friends when they don't even call me. But, then again, I normally feel like a loser anyhow. HA. okay. Hi my name is Autumn and I am lonely and bored. I should make more friends or something. Because, my christmas break....kinda sucked. A lot. And I can't exactly do something fun like hop in my car and go shopping. Besides...shopping by yourself is really boring. Plus I feel so weird being in a mall by myself...no one to talk to. Besides, to go shopping, you'd have to have money. I don't even have that. All my jeans are ripping/tearing and my good pair got thrown in the dryer and now i don't fit in them anymore. So my dad is probably going to take me shopping for new ones this weekend. Apparently he'll have to use the credit card. I hope I can get some khaki's or something because Tom said he wants me to go to Hy-vee's christmas party thing and I don't have anything to wear. Grr. I cannot fit into my favourite pair of jeans, once again. This sucks. I should lose weight. I am kinda chubby for my "petite body" I should be like....a size 3 or something. I just saw this show on TV where they're looking for supermodels to be in Sports Illustrated (swimsuit edition) and these girls were so pretty it made me feel icky. Like wow...I'm never going to look that pretty, or skinny, or sexy or anything. To anyone who doesn't feel comfortable with their body: Never watch or look at any kind of swimsuit edition of anything.....ugh.