Weird night tonight
I don't know what is going on in the back of my head but I can't seem to relax and enjoy my evening. Maybe it's because I am alone this week, but I feel restless. Actually, restless isn't quite right I feel unconnected. As if my past only extends back about 7 years and anything prior to that has faded no just from memory but from access. Google searching people I haven't spoken to in a decade just brings up the same bland "we found two people with xxxx name" aggregate sites and naught else. This phenomenon isn't new to my experience. Growing up as a military child I thought that everyone cast aside their life at least twice a decade. But I guess, for some reason, as I approach a life goal that I have had to work for I find myself wondering if that work will matter by 2020.