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im really scared. everythings getting really scary. i try to sugarcoat it all and pretend that its all ok. even when i know its not i tell myself and everyone else it is. its not ok. this time i feel it in the pit of my stomach and everything is not ok. if i could go back in a second and change those few minutes i would. god i would. why cant things be ok just this once. i didnt mean to mess them up. i didnt mean for it to happen. rewind time a couple of weeks....i didnt mean it. god my life is fucked up. im so fucking miserable...............