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[luckisallugot]

Well so far everything is going well here. I can't believe that I've been here a whole month, it's insane. It's going pretty fast. I've grown to really like the family that I live with and I really love the classes that I am taking. I keep forgetting where I am. It's all going well. I am always surprised that it is going well. I mean it's hard sometimes, but I'm pretty happy here. I've realized how much I love my friends in Chicago and how much I miss my family. You don't realize what you love until it's not there. I love it here, but I don't think I could ever be so far from my friends and family for a huge amount of time. I mean four months is one thing, but living here for years would just be impossible for me. I miss them all so much. I mean I love it here, and I'm having an amazing time, but it will be really nice once December comes and I get to see everyone. It really puts everything into perspective. Sometimes it's hard though because no one here knows anything. I would really like to talk to someone, but it's impossible. For the first time in a realllly long time, no one knows anything about my past. It's so so strange. Everyone always finds out. I mean I find my friends looking at the scars, but we've never brought them up. This Italian guy was talking to me the other day and in the first two minutes asked me what happened, it was really awkward and I just sort of lied. I'm glad no one else has brought it up though. It's nice to just take a break from my mind because I know once I'm back in Chicago and reality starts up again it won't be so easy having therapy again and everything. It's hard not having that weekly person to talk to. I'm not really making sense anymore...but anyways.

For break I am going to Barcelona, Paris, and Dublin. I'm sooo excited! And next week I'm off to Venice, and then Brussels in two weeks. I can't believe how close everything is here. This is like my one opportunity to see all these places. I know that I will never get this opportunity again, so I want to take advantage of it right now, and just live for each moment.