blahh.
so today sucked. i had a swim meet and i was so scared that i was going to faint... so then i started eating and eating... ughh. im soo mad. i binged sooo fuckin much. ughh. disgusting. i feel so gross right now. and i do so good during the week but then on the weekends i just binge so much. its so hard. well im finally over my period so thats good. i had like 1,000 calories today or more. i dont even want to think about it. i feel so disgusting. i will try tomorrow. i hope i can do better. what the fuck is my problem. i have such a fat ass and here i just eat and eat and eat and its pissing me off.
THINK THIN!!! ughh.
i am a fat ass. i need to really focus. really!
THINK THIN!!! ughh.
i am a fat ass. i need to really focus. really!