WHAT THE HELL

[luckey13215]

Am i doing wrong?
Is there something wrong with me? What does she have that I dont?
God those questions are always in my head.
With every new person I have feelings for those are always things I ask myself.
And the worst part is....I'm still giving giving giving.

What have I GOTTTEN actually from all this?
What good karma have I ever gotten back from being so damn nice?
What have "you" and i quote you because this you could go out
to sooo many people...but what have "you" ever given back to me
in return?
When will I be recognized for who I am? Will I EVER?
I ask too many damn questions I wont automatically find the answers to.

I also go for boys that seem to be totally out of my league.
I guess the nice, romantic ones dont even know I exist.
And the bad boys are all out for anything they can get.
So its a lose lose situation right?

This is my life.
Rejection rejection rejection
from boys
friends
my college
family.
Lose
Lose
Lose.

I've never wanted something so much.
And realized I couldn't have it.
Why cant I?
WHAT do they have that I dont?

Good night.