just RAWR
so today is just...weird i guess i was up til all hours of the night talkin to a friend...then i didnt wanna stop talkin to them cuz iw as having fun ya know...i found out jen goes in for surgery in the mornin and wont be back for a while...im gonna miss her...she is my <3 she has helped me out more than she'll ever know...i hate that she is scared about the surgery but then who wouldnt be you kno? i just wish i was there to hold her hand thru the whole thing and let her know that it will be ok. but i cant...so im makin her take a teddy bear...the closet thing to me ya know...i just want everything to go ok with her...
leah is a crack whore...THE END Lmao...RAWR
ive just been thinkin non stop today and ive wanted to write so much but cant ecatly put it into words what is going thru my mind. there so much in my head i cant think straight...im so confused on alot of things...alexis i love you and cant wait til the 18th to see you. i just wish things could be different than they are. i dont kno what im saying maybe this makes no sense at all, but then maybe it does who knows? not me
i dont know if life makes any sense anymore either. im just a babysitter..im just a friend...i dont kno what i am to anyone anymore...i dont kno what i am to myself. things just dont make sense anymore. am i truly happy? i dont kno...ive been thru so much and done so much i dont kno what way is up anymore. am i a lover? am i a friend? what am i to you? id like to kno so i can clear some of this confusion up....